Wills Upcoming Visit :D Wow Friends and Pumpkinhead!

Well so much for writing here again sooner lol. Anyway things have been going pretty good for me lately :) Will and I are going to see each other again on the 11th :D He's staying until the 14th :). I'm so excited :D 2 half days together and 2 full ones :) (Was only 1 full 1 last time). We're gonna play the Ouija board and maybe some other board games, kiss/cuddle (blush), and maybe drive around looking at Christmas decorations and going to see a movie. For the movie we're thinking of the new one coming out, Fourth Kind. Since we both like aliens/paranormal it seems a good choice :) Just worried my local theater won't be playing it in time. I remember years ago they were always a few weeks slow on getting the newest releases :( I guess if they aren't we can probably watch District 9 or Paranormal Activity. Would suggest going to Buffalo but he's already gonna be driving 4 or 5 hours to come here so don't wanna ask him to drive that much more.

Speaking of movies we watched Pumpkinhead together on day of the dead (the day after Halloween). We watched it on a movie site while chatting online heh. It was pretty good, not one of the best movies I've seen though, I wish it had ended differently too. Was my idea to watch a scary movie online together :) Thinking we might make a habit of this watching stuff online together :)

Our recruit a friend thing ended :( But his lock and my rogue both hit 60 before it did :) We're level 63 now actually. Turns out when you hit 60 you stop getting the triple xp anyway and can't be summoned anymore (I really should've read the faq on recruit a friend more lol). Odd thing with the summons thing is sometimes it worked when we were 60 and sometimes it didn't. Seemed to work mostly in inns. Since we stopped getting triple xp a few days before recruit a friend ended we decided to play other toons. He had a level 10 druid and a level 8 priest so I made a hunter and he granted my hunter levels with both toons until I was same level as his druid :) Got those toons up to level 19 in a couple hours of play time :) Hunter seems a fun class but I'd much rather play my rogue with him, or my druid when he gets up to 80 :D

And he got the burning crusade xpac so we can level to 70 together...told him he didn't need to though and that he could've just bought wrath, cause when I switched computers and reinstalled wow all I needed was wrath. But thinking now I may be wrong and that doing that might only work for accounts that already had downloaded the xpac before. Because everything online says you need wrath so it makes me wonder. Anyway he'll need to get wrath, and hopefully he will soon. Will be even more awesome when hes 80 and can play with my druid :D

Just wish he'd play more :( We don't even play together everyday but he thinks we play together alot, he says we play together an average of 3-4 hours a day, but I know thats totally off. He said he calculated it from his /played in wow. But thing is he played alot without me too so I'm not sure how he could calculate it. Anyway I know for sure we don't play that much on average, we barely play every other day, even weekend days we don't always get 3-4 in :( He thinks anything above 2 hours is good though :( I disagree. I think 2 is good for weekdays but think it should be more like 5-6 on weekend days. Guess we just have very different ideas on what is alot. We've argued quite a bit about it actually. :( Also he said before that he'd try to play more wow with me but it seems totally like he went back on his word about that because he later said he meant 2 hours a day and I replied something like thats what you said weeks before you said the playing more thing and he said something like well I didn't always do 2 hours then and will now. Another thing is he seems to stay on wow longer the times he goes on without me :(

Anyway while I'm on the subject of wow, one of my wow friends, Rich got hacked :( I was wondering why I hadn't seen him on in a couple days, he came on last night, I asked him where he'd been and told him armory wouldn't bring up his toons. He said "yea, I got hacked" He said the hacker took all his stuff and de'd it and used his emblems to buy epic gems and stuff. Took him a few days to get it all back (he got hacked on Wednesday morning and just got account back last night). Whoever hacked him also paid for server transfers for both his toons to another realm. He thought that was funny since he said whoever did it spent money on it. What I don't get though is why they didn't change the email (he said he got an email about his toons being transferred and thats how he found out, orginally when he got hacked he thought the person deleted them since he couldn't find them on armory) if they changed the billing info (which I'm assuming they did if they paid for the transfers) Really confusing, I'll have to ask him about it later. Hopefully he isn't lying about getting hacked for some reason. Anyway he got all his stuff back, plus some abyss crystals and such from when his gear was disenchanted, guess they reinstated his gear and let him keep the crystals. He thinks hes missing some gold though which sucks.

Anyway I just recently am starting to get interested in getting back into raiding on my druid. But I think after my recent try I'll just give up and try again in a few weeks or months. It was an uldaur 25 run that I joined already in progress because 1 of my wow friends asked me to come. Wish I hadn't, we wiped alot, not only that but the run had 10 guildys in in and 1 of them was lead, the douche decided all runed orbs would go to their guild bank. Most guilds do that, I don't really agree with it in any case...but when you have non guildys in the run, especially 10 of them you should fucking let everyone roll. Assholes. Anyway I force dc'd shortly after that when they wiped again. Do worry some that I made the friend who asked me to come mad by doing that but meh. Maybe I can say sorry and make up some excuse to him.

Ugh speaking of wow friends...1 of mine, the one I mentioned before that suggested maybe meeting 1 day since he moved to Ohio never ever ever helps me and it pisses me off. I've run him through stuff before but he never does the same. Its been like this for years pretty much and I'm just about fed up with it. Don't think hes a very good friend at all. He always says he doesn't have much time or is logging soon, or has had a bad day and just wants to bg to relax. Yet he'll help his fucking guild whenever they ask. A guild whos leader is a good wow friend of his and who was very rude to me before when I was in that guild :( Pisses me off so much. Have actually considering ending the friendship over him not helping would think if he was a good friend he wouldn't only not be in that guild but would help me too sometimes like I've helped him. Don't really remember even many instances of him helping me even. Remember 2 though both over a year ago. 1 he got pissed at me when I asked him to run me and some others through an instance because the others took too long to get there (he really has no patiance at all, even less then me lol). Another one was for my locks epic mount quest at 60 and he actually suggested I give him money for it :( Could almost understand that in a way because he paid money for the items himself weeks before for his own lock quest, but he had them regardless of me so it wasn't something a friend should've done. I wouldn't have suggested he pay if the situation had been revered :( Also remember the time a year or so ago where he borrowed 2000 gold from me to buy epic flight and took months to pay it back :( Anyway the day I asked him to run me through the instance he was online for hours on end in battlegrounds. Would've only taken 20-30 minutes to run me through the instance and he wouldn't make time. Some friend.

Did eventually find someone to run me through, one of my old guild leaders who I still talk to lol, she was very nice about it too and got some others to help too to speed it up. Thats about the only guild leader I've had in wow that I don't hate lol. But that guild doesn't exist anymore they merged with another one. Anyway I like my achievements and they weren't progressed very far so I quit partly over that and partly because 1 of the officers was a total ass to me.

Anyway as for achievements...I've gotten a few lately :) Less then I used to but I have alot of the non raid ones now and haven't been raiding much to get the raid ones. I got sporegger and kureni rep achievements as well as the diplomat achievement/title :)Also finally did Sunwell and got my outland raider achievement :D Been waiting months to find a group to get that, no one ever does it. Also killed all the rares in outland for bloody rare achievement lol. That one took about a week but was fun. Got alot of crappy level 60ish blues and some good ones from killing the rares, so some nice gear for my rogue and Will's lock and some shards for me to de :)

Anyway might write again sooner but don't hold your breaths lol. Might do next part of that longest personality quiz if I'm bored. Otherwise my next blog entry will probably be about Will's upcoming visit. So excited :D

Will's Visit :)

Will's visit went pretty good :) But was over way too soon :( The first day (Friday) he didn't get to my house till around 5ish. He fails because when he got to the hotel he went to go out to eat first with his parents, and because they didn't have their passports so couldn't take the shorter route which would be through canada. :P Was hoping he'd arrive around 1 or 2 :( Anyway his parents drove him to my house, my mom wanted to meet them/him so she went out there with me to their car and said Hi I'm Stephanies mom blah blah. lol. His parents seemed pretty nice, well his mom at least, his dad seemed a bit standoffish and seemed maybe he didn't like me much. Bet he thinks I'm dumb too for not knowing my way around the city I've lived my whole life in.

Anyway after that they drove us to the falls. We got kinda lost lol. I felt kinda dumb that I couldn't help with directions because I've lived here my whole life. But I never really go anywhere. We split up from his parents once they parked but it seemed kinda like his dad followed us around some lol he kept seeming to find us. Anyway we wanted to go on the maid of the mist but we didn't really know where to go for it and by time we thought we figured it out it was too late for it.

We walked around the falls a ton, he took a few pictures and I had brought my digital camera along so so did I. He had his parents take a couple of us together too. He should've taken more pictures of the falls though, I guess he didn't see the point since he'll be coming back here sometime :P But still next time he comes the weather will probably be cold so yea he should've taken more pics. Hopefully his parents took alot more. Wish we could've gone over to the canadian side too but he didn't have his passport :(

Anyway we walked around the falls for like 3 or 4 hours. My legs were killing me and so were my feet! Especially since I was wearing my new sneakers. Speaking of my legs...I regret buying that one pair of jeans. They slid down on me too much and ended up rubbing against my thighs, now I have a bit of a rash there :( Ugh wish I could just for once find some jeans that fit perfectly. At least the ones I wore the next day weren't too bad. Anyway his parents wanted to stay a little longer at the falls, like maybe till the fireworks at 10 (on the canadian side they've been doing fireworks every friday at 10) but guess they decided against it because we left a little earlier then that. Not sure if canada is still doing the fireworks anymore because I don't recall hearing them at 10 either. Maybe they stopped since its September now. Before they left his parents went to the giftshop and got some stuff I think. William didn't go in and get anything though. Gah I should've insisted he get something! Well, maybe I can get him something from there sometime then :)

Anyway after we were done walking around the falls his parents dropped him off here and we hung out for a few more hours here. Unfortunately with my mom :( Kinda wish she would've gone back in her room at least lol. We had no alone time that whole day. Anyway the 3 of us watched a movie together. HG Wells The Time Machine. Was pretty good, not that I paid much attention to it. Anyway we probably could've played the ouija board that night but he didn't bring it with him :( He failed! Well, guess it was partially my fault since my mom had said she didn't want it in this house. But still, we don't need to listen to her. And had we played that night we would've then had time to go on the maid of the mist the next day. My mom brought us a pizza and some cheese fries back for dinner. 3 cheese hamburger pizza, he loved it despite them not putting any sauce on it. It was pretty good, but I wish they would've put sauce on it. In the menu it says they do yet whenever we order it theres never sauce on it. His parents picked him up around midnight and he went back to the hotel then.

He came over next day around 10:30am (wanted it to be earlier!) We were maybe gonna go on the maid of the mist but on the phone we decided not to because we still hadn't had a chance to play the ouija board and we really wanted to do that. He was leaving around 2 or 3ish so we would've only had time to do 1. Anyway we played for about 3 hours.

Wrote down some of our results. At first we had no luck at all. So we (well mostly him) visualized a bunch of energy flowing through the room or whatever. After that it worked. I was a little shocked but not too much, I'd always believed that if I ever played with 1 it would work. He on the other hand must've been very shocked, he played 1 by himself before and never had any results. That was his first time playing it with another person and my first time playing it ever. Anyway he wrote down most the sessions we did, we didn't write down the first few though. Got some interesting results but alot of gibberish too lol and our first few very quickly went to Bye. Had 1 tell us our dates of death when we asked, a demon, something from another planet that had numerous arms and ears, and a spirit that claimed to be a cat I had. I'll probably make another post later detailing more of our ouija board sessions. :)

Anyway before he had to go we made it go to "goodbye" and closed the board. He tried to visualize anything negative or that would mean us harm being forced out of the house. I kept laughing though so he couldn't really concentrate on it lol. I'm soo bad. Then he got up and we hugged and I walked him out side. His parents were already there, I awkwardly snuck in another hug with them while they watched lol. Then they drove away, I watched them drive away for a few minutes and felt sad already. He's so sweet he called me soon as I got in the house to make sure I got in ok :) <3

He posted some pics on the board from our meetup. They came out surprisingly well (his parents take good pics). I usually hate any pics of me but really like these ones. I'd look hot in them if I was skinnier lol. Will looks ok in them too but he didn't photograph as well as me in them lol, like his pics from before much better.

Anyway thats all for now I'll have to write the post about the ouija board sessions later as well as a post about wow cause I quit my guild and am now guildless lol.

Will's gonna visit this weekend!

So it looks like WIll and I will be meeting on labor day weekend after all. Turns out his parents thought it would be good to visit the falls for a day and a half. He's coming on Friday, they're leaving super early, around 6ish. And they're leaving the next day in the afternoon. Wish he was staying longer. The fastest way to get here is to drive through canada, its only 4 or 5 hours that way, but they don't have their passports so they'll be going the long way so they probably won't arrive until the afternoon.

Not sure what we'll do on the visit, probably won't have much privacy :/ Gonna play ouija board for sure I think, just not sure where. My mom hates them though so ugh where will we go to play it. His hotel room lol? But he's actually gonna be staying in amherst which is about 40 mins from me and not here because the rates are cheaper. Well whatever screw my mom, we'll play it here whether she likes it or not. Hopefully she'll have a long day at work that day too. Either his parents will take me back there to chill with him while they go off and do their own thing or they will drop him off here and come back. We haven't decided yet.

I'm so anxious about him visiting. Bet I won't be able to sleep at all the night before. But am also excited. Hope he likes offline me as much as he likes online me.
I think we should write a list of things to do and what questions to ask the ouija board.

Anyway in other news, I left the house yesterday for the first time in 10 months! Had to to go clothes shopping for friday and saturday, since I've gained so much weight in the past few years, most of it in the past year :/ All my jeans are now way too tight and I only had 2 pairs of stretchy pants that didn't look or fit that well (one was almost falling off me and extremely baggy). Hmm either it got bigger somehow or I lost weight since buying it 9 or 10 months ago. So anyway I bought 2 pairs of jeans. Would've gotten more but couldn't find anything that fit good. Apparently target doesn't carry jeans for shorter people. Pretty retarded because I'm 5'4 which isn't that the average height for most women anyway? Also got a few shirts, not that I needed them that much as most I had still fit me (think 90% of the weight I gained was in my hips/ass). Took some recent pics for Will and he still likes me, overweight and all :) He'd be a hypocrite not to though since he's overweight like me. Not that that stops most guys.

I got a new book to read too(I never really read books but it looked good, its Testimony by Anita Shreve). Don't know when I'll feel in the mood to read it. I got some peanut butter m&m's as well bought all 3 of their last ones they had there :D. And got some special magazine about Michael Jackson. Am hoping to be able to sell it for a profit in 10-20 years lol. My mom says it won't ever be worth anything but she don't know shit. Got new sneakers too, really needed those, hadn't gotten any in I think 3 years, if not longer.

Anyway had a bit of embarrassment when I went to go pay. Had never used my credit card before except for buying stuff online. So I didn't know how to put it through the scanner and I put it in the wrong way :( I wanted to die from the embarrassment. Why in the world didn't my mother demonstrate for me how to do it before we went out. I swear its like she enjoys watching me fail. A big part of the reason I'm so damn dependent on other people is because she won't help to teach me how to do anything on my own. If I ever do move out, I will most likely cut off all contact with her because I hate her for this and other things.

Anyway for a change, I'm not gonna write anything about that game you guys know I always play but I will say its been down all day for maintenance. :( My next blog entry might not be until after Will visits but we'll see.

Yay Red Proto Drake :D

I got my last achievement, less-rabi done a few days ago and now I'm the proud owner of a red proto drake :D I named him Pyro. Well you can't really name mounts or vanity pets in WOW but I refer to him as Pyro lol. Fitting I believe since he's red, plus it keeps with the P thing I have going lol (pretty much all my wow char names begin with a P). Actually got the achievement in a pug, well not a pug but someones guild run that was short 1 dps, so I was the only pug I guess. Took us a few tries but we got it. Think for dps we had me, a rogue and a mage, and had shaman heals, forgot what class we had for tank, either dk or warrior.

Anyway after doing all those achievements I kinda have felt like taking a break from running instances for a while. So I haven't done many raids lately. Have just been trying to stick with running heroic toc and the heroic daily every day, but usually get talked into running more. People don't seem to understand either. Yesterday Rich and I were chatting in wow, mostly about movies, anyway he asked what I was up to I just said clearing out my mail/inventory, bout to do uldaur soon. Then when it was canceled I was kinda happy because I didn't really feel like running it and I told him I was kinda happy because I didn't feel like running something. Then like 20-30 mins later he asks me if I wanna run something, I didn't reply cause well...I'd already said I didn't really feel like running something, then 10 mins later he whispers me again and asks why I'm ignoring him. I said sorry just like I said I don't really feel like running something atm and was happy when uldaur got canceled :P Then he says something like "uldaur is not something" and tries to convince me more to run something. I said nah gotta clean out my inventory here. Then he logs off wow without a word like 10-15 mins later. :/ He didn't say hi when he first logged on today either and I didn't see him login, but I checked when I logged in and he wasn't on. So I whispered him and was like hey when did you sneak on? Then he was like a little while ago sorry I didn't say hi got invited to an instance right away. I'm probably overreacting but it seems or seemed like he was mad at me.

In other wow news. My guild master is hilarious. Unfortunately I don't think he means to be. English isn't his first language (spanish is) and he gets alot of sayings mixed up, plus says alot of just funny to me sayings. Like the other day in guild chat he said something like "if the baby don't got no tits the mama can't get no milk" not sure what he was saying that for but think he was talking about the guild bank and how it had like no money so we couldn't use it for repairs. Anyway he called a guild meeting a few days ago and it was funny as heck. He was the only one talking through 95% of it too. Anyway he was mostly expressing his annoyance/disappointment towards the guild and several members that were saying bad things about non guildys in runs and apparently whispering them telling them they sucked and stuff. One thing he said that I found hilarious was "if you done this and the shoe fits please take it and put it on". Were some other funny sayings from him too during the guild meeting including him comparing the guild to a boat "a guild is like a boat if you have too many people some are gonna fall off". He didn't seem to be joking with any of the things he said either, he sounded 100% serious, which made it all the funnier. Another funny part was when he said if anyone had any questions now would be the time to ask and the silence that followed until someone piped up and asked a question about the in game calendar. LOL I wish I'd recorded the whole thing, did record like 2 small bits though for giggles.

Anyway on to a non wow subject. Me and Willy! Heh Willy, wonder if I should call him that :D Anyways things seem to be ok with him. Still not sure I can trust him though but don't expect to meet anyone I can. Another thing that bugs me is he doesn't think he can commit 100% till he's engaged. :( Well, think after several months and meetings he will change. Hope so anyway. I understand not wanting to now cause we haven't even met yet or anything, but after say 3 or 4 meetings and several months or a year that better change...if not guess we won't work out. Ugh this was supposed to be a better topic. Really though there is more bad then good here, just like their is with my wow friends. I just tend to write and focus more on the bad.

Anyway we're gonna meet in winter. I hope he's not like the other ones were and just saying he will come visit me. Though with my SA this bad, a part of me feels I could wait forever lol. :/ I think he really will come visit me though, he seems different then the others in that regard. He wanted to maybe meet on labor day but we (mostly me I think) decided it would be better to wait). Hope he's ok with that. He seemed to be, but people never seem to say when they're upset about things like that. Anyway we discussed things to do and I couldn't think of much other then walking around the falls, playing with a ouija board or going to the casino. He doesn't wanna go to the casino :( I've never really been to one and I think it'd be fun. But he's not a gambler, besides don't want him to spend even more money. As for the ouija board, I'd have to go to his hotel room to do that which might feel a little weird. But my mom won't let 1 in here she said over her dead body, she considers those things evil and says they only get demons. Apparently she thinks that no one ever sticks around as a ghost, or if they do they can't communicate via ouija boards yet demons can. Its funny, since she herself has said she has seen ghosts before. Anyway I also suggested we walk around the falls some, seems like thats all I can think of to do on our visit for now. Hmm just had another thought...hot sex. Kidding! Not until I'm married. Maybe board games? Hmm, don't wanna bore him to death though. Don't even know if he likes board games.

New Patch Is Awesome, People Not So Awesome

Wow was not up until way late like 7 or 8pm when they did the maintenance the other day. My friend joked that he should get an extra day on his trial, I agree. I should get a free day too for that. Anyway it was patch day which was why it took so long. Its never up at the time they say it will be on patch day. Would think they'd learn by now that if its patch day they won't have the servers up at same time and would so put that on the login screen at first.

Anyway new patch is awesome :D Can now get 13 champion seals a day, which is over double the previous amount of 5 :D Will take alot less time now to get the rest of the seals I need to buy my last 2 mounts and the pets and tabards. What sucks though is they changed some of the dailys to make it where the valiant and champion ones aren't to kill the same stuff. Bummer because I liked getting credit for doing 2 dailys at once lol. Was gonna stay a valiant until I got everything I needed from all the cities I was already a champion with before I became 1 with my last city but decided to just go ahead and become a champion with last city now because of that.

The new 5 man instance is especially awesome. Fun and short and lots of great loot drops (quite a few upgrades for both my specs in there on heroic mode). I've had the worst luck yet so far though and nothing for me has dropped :( I'm happy about the emblems of conquest dropping from heroics now though, means I'll get upgrades soon either way. So won't take me long to get my boomkin spec doing as much dps as my feral spec now. Alot of people QQ'd about that though because they didn't want people being able to get uldaur quality gear from running 5 mans. Well screw them, not everyone likes to raid. Me I like to raid, but I couldn't ever find guilds that did the highest end game content and didn't have jerks raid leading. If I was better with people I'd start my own guild, but I can't deal with people near that much.

And speaking of guilds, ran into an officer from the last one I quit in game while out questing. I said that I hope no ones mad at me for quitting the guild. And he said something like "nah people leave all the time no biggie". I acted cool about it but I was thinking to myself wtf. Don't they miss me any? And he didn't even say anything about me being welcomed back if I ever decided I wanted to come back nor anything about "sorry O treated you that way". Not that I want back in that guild but I was their best player and O was a total ass to me they fucking should've been begging for me to come back. But it seems like none of the officers care or are glad I'm gone, I don't get it, jealousy maybe? Oh well they're all a bunch of noobs anyway. I prefer the one I'm in now even though I think more of the people here are jerks then in my last one. Like someone said to me once before, its not like any of your guildys would ever be your friends still if you quit the game. So that to me means its better to be with people skilled at the game then nice people. Of course "nice" people usually are just better at hiding their bad side anyway. The guild I'm in now though recently changed their no pug rule, thank god. If they hadn't I'd probably get kicked soon or by now lol. Sure wish I hadn't pugged nax 25 yet this week though, the run I got saved to sucked. But I'm saved so mine as well go to the continuation of it they scheduled for tonight. /sigh

Anyway on to a non wow subject but related to yet again people sucking. What is with some people??? Had a guy I used to be online friends with send me a message on the website we met on. Said he'd like to get back in touch. Anyway heres the message, is it just me or does he sound really cocky? If I remember right thats mostly why I stopped talking to him, he always had this idea that I liked him or would want to be more then friends with him, when truth is I never had any interest in him and at the time actually liked someone else.

"You probably don't remember me but my name is Jonathan and ages ago, we talked a bit and you actually introduced me to OKCupid and I remember thanking you since that's how I met some people off there but then something happened and we stopped talking. It's been ages but I was kinda hoping we could talk again, just as friends. It's a long story but I wouldn't mind talking, just as friends if you don't mind."

Notice how he says "just friends" twice. I have quite a few personality and other requirements for a bf, if I wanted one which I'm not sure I do. I'd never be interested in him, I don't like guys that are more experienced then me or are so cocky, plus he doesn't fit most other things I'd want either. The nerve, he'd be lucky if I ever was interested but I'm not and never was. But if I was though, to be rejected by someone like him? He isn't much to look at, and this seems another case I'm all too familiar with of the barely average looking guy only wanting hot chics. Really annoying no matter what and needless to say I won't be replying, he sent it a few months ago anyway. I hadn't checked that site in that long lol.

Anyway thats all for now.

Retards in WOW and This Guild Fucking Sucks

Ok this guild isn't anywhere near as skilled as I originally thought. Well I guess it's not the guild so much as the people they pug, we never have enough for even half a guild run. They certainly could pug much better people though, instead they take anyone, then are shocked and upset when the people suck. We had 2 flame levi hard mode fail runs this week. Tried it like 10 times yesterday and another 10 today with 2 towers up, wiped over and over. Finally did down flame levi today, but we had to take down all towers to do so. Most of our wipes were from the idiots shotting down pyrate accidentally aggoring the boss. Especially this one noob today. That noob also at one attempt kept shotting at the add before flame levi comes out even though we had like 20 people in vent and in game chat yelling for him to stop and let it reset.

Anyway for 25 man they do just flame levi every week. And judging from these runs they pug alot and wipe alot for it. I know they have a no pug rule but fuck that. A bit ironic to have a no pug rule for a guild that has to pug to fill runs. If I can get another group once it resets I'm going with that group.

Also their no pug rule even is for VOA! I pugged both 10 and 25 VOA this week because it can't really be scheduled, theres no telling when ally will have wintergrasp to run it, and everyone pugs voa. Well everyone but these guys. Anyway after I ran both one of the raid leaders put both VOAs in the calender and sent me and 23 other people invites, I declined of course cause I was saved. They also put up runs/invites for 10 and 25 OS's at the same time...I accepted both of those figuring if ally didn't have voa they'd do those and invite the people on that list.

Anyway the next day when it was time for the runs they invited everyone to group. I figured to run OS since I got an invite and had declined the one they sceduled for voa, plus we didn't have VOA and the battle was starting in 20 mins or so. But no they said it was for VOA, that we would pvp in wintergrasp and if we won then run it. I obviously couldn't go because I was saved to a pug that 1 shotted both bosses, so I said so. Then one of the raid leaders, that hyper girl in vent gets all upset at me saying how we said no pugging, blah blah blah. Anyway they fought in wintergrasp and surprisingly the alliance won, so they went to run VOA, they pugged people since we didn't have many guildys on for that either. For some reason it took them like 20-30 minutes to fill the group, probably because it was so late. Then they wiped like 4 or 5 times on Emalon. I was still in raid so I got to see all them die over and over, lol. Then they finally killed Emalon and went on to kill the easy boss. All in all from the time I got my invite, it took them over 2 hours. I stayed in raid whole time because I was clearing out a bunch of stuff in my mail/inventory. Then after some people left I went to OS 25 with them, where they attempted to do 2 drakes up and failed over and over. Finally we just killed 1 of the drakes and got it done. It was so fucking frustrating, I thought the run would be 30 minutes tops, not 3 hours.

Anyway I'm definitely pugging VOA when it resets tomorrow. If anyone in guild gets pissy at me for it I'll just tell them "well sorry but tbh its VOA and I just wanna get it done fast, not wait around for us to win it or possibly lose my chance at running it because ally didn't have or couldn't get it during the time we scheduled it for." I'll probably pug other stuff too since all the guild runs that haven't been 5 mans have been fail so far. If they don't like it they can guild kick me...tbh I'm kinda hoping they will.

Also I'm kinda pissed that I never got the nax 10 achievment run that was promised to me when I helped some of their alts out in that nax 10 run I mentioned last week. I had told them I really wanted to do the achievements in there but would help them gear their alts this week if they'd help me get the achievements I've been trying to get done next week. They said they would and even named a day and time it would be done. But no one fucking scheduled it or sent invites out, at least not to me. And then I saw them this week running it without me. Fucking jerks.

And as for my friend who I referred they said they really like the game but probably won't be subscribing :( They said something about being worried they would become addicted to it and ignore other stuff. I don't think they would though, they don't seem to have that much trouble logging off. Hopefully they'll change their mind.

Wow Stuff and Online Friends

I joined another guild already. This ones new, just formed like 2 weeks ago. Not sure how much I'll like it, but giving it a try. One thing I already dislike is their "No pugging" rule. I think they might be a bit too uncasual for me. They have less then 30 members too, and I'm the only druid so far. But on the bright side I've grouped with alot of the members before and they seem pretty alright. The person who invited me in says they're focused on achievements too so thats a plus. They raid late at nights too like 12 am server. Which is usually good for me, and a plus because this way I can watch my tv shows when they're on rather then having to download them.

Also I've made some new online friends in the past few weeks. Only 1 seems to be a decent conversationalist though and I think the others are ignoring me. I only got a few replies to my "looking for misanthropic people to talk to" thread. 1 was that guy I mentioned before that wanted to PM and got all upset that I wanted to talk on MSN. The other was a guy who I talked to 2 or 3 times and never heard from again. I'll give it more time before I start to think he's ignoring me for sure because it hasn't been that long yet. The other though...I used to be friends with him on AIM years ago and he was a bit of a jerk to me back then and always used to try to change my mind and convince me people weren't that bad. So the first time or 2 he contacted me recently I just ignored it. Then he sent me another 1 a few days ago asking why I was ignoring him. So I replied and said something like "Didn't we used to talk years ago and not really get along? Also Tbh I'm really only looking for misanthropic people to talk to." Then he replied back saying something like "I know how I was back then but I've changed and am more like you now I think" And said he'd really like to talk to me. I wasn't sure if I believed him or not but I agreed to talk to him and sent him my msn. That was a few days ago now, and he's not added me yet still. Makes me wonder what he wanted it for, hope he's not signing me up for spam or crap.

Speaking of friends...my one online friend who I've known since late 2005 recently moved from CA to Ohio to move back in with his parents because he'd been unemployed for a time and ran out of money to live alone in LA. :( Anyway he's pretty much the only online friend I talk to regularly and have kept for more then a year or two. But he mentioned us meeting one day once he gets a car. I was like cool but isn't Ohio like 8 hours away from me...come to find out its only 3 hours away. While I kinda would like to meet him someday theres a few problems. The one being that he doesn't know half of how bad my SA is, the other being my crappy sense of directions, he'll expect me to show him around or something...and I leave the house so little that I really won't know my way around, plus even if I did leave the house I wouldn't know because I have like no sense of direction. It will probably be at least a year or 2 before he can even afford a car (he doesn't have a job yet even) but still, just thinking about it causes my SA to act up.

Old PM's Depress Me

Cleaned out my PM box on a forum. Can't believe it was almost full. It was only sent pm's though that I deleted and don't think it was all of them. The board lost the other pm's about a year ago when they switched owners and whatever and somehow these pm's I sent got put in my inbox upon the switch. It would've been nice to read the ones people actually sent to me again before I lost those though. Anyway I don't think it was even all my sent pm's because I'm sure I sent much more then that. But nonetheless it was interesting to read them. I'm sad to say that I don't even remember most of the people I was pm'ing with back then. Did searches on the forums for them, only one is still around and they're using a new name. But of course the others could still be around on new names too and just not have said who they used to be.

Anyway they have this thing on the forum now where you can just click a check box next to each PM and download them to a text file so I did that because I really hate throwing stuff away even online. I never delete emails or anything like that unless I have no choice but to. But I still don't have alot of my old emails and stuff because I used to have webtv and use their email and then when they terminated it for non payment I lost everything. Wish I'd forwarded them all to another account but I guess now it would've been a waste if I had as at the time all I'd had for second accounts was yahoo and hotmail and I stupidly went 6 months without signing into both years later and lost everything. I thought my mom would eventually be able to pay that webtv bill though and get it back, never happened though LOL.

Anyway I rarely go back and read stuff because it always depresses me, but its still nice to have the option to. It felt weird seeing stuff I'd written from as far back as 2003-2005, things were very different for me then. Felt kinda depressed when I read one where I said I'd met this great guy online (my last ex) and how I was so happy. And other one where I was apologizing to this one person for not being on IM when I said I would be because my friend came over. Its somewhat hard for me to believe that I once had somewhat of a life. And I can't believe I don't even remember the person I was sending those pm's too, they seemed like someone I'd been knowing online for a while.

Speaking of keeping stuff, I wanna delete my myspace but I don't wanna lose all the messages from my sister that I have saved on there (we communicated though myspace not email) Anyway I could just copy and paste them to word pad and save but meh seems too much trouble. I just wanna delete my myspace so that she can't ever contact me again.....well that and so no one I used to know can find me. I changed it so my real name shouldn't bring up my myspace but for some reason on social networking search sites my profile still comes up when I search my name. Ugh. And yes I search myself, I'm one of my favorite people to stalk LOL, well not really I just wanna make sure no ones saying bad stuff about me.

Anyway speaking of pm's whats with some people. This one person the other day got upset with me because I took long to reply back to a pm. Well long in his opinion. It had only been a day and he pm'd me again saying something about he didn't get why I seemed uninterested. I told him I'm not too good with pm's or email and gave him my msn so we could chat in real time. Then he replied back and seemed to be all upset at me saying how he wasn't good with real time chat and when he heard I liked cats he thought it'd be fun pm'ing me and that since I had SA I'd be like him and be better at emails/pm's and that it was rather disappointing. Anyway I replied back and explained to him that I am better at im's because I overthink emails/pm's, IM's on the other hand don't give me as long to think and in my case the more I think the more I put off replying so I'm better with IMs. Since he didn't seem interested in pming me unless I replied quicker I told him to let me know if he changed his mind about IMing. He pm'd me back today saying "sorry to have disturbed you and caused you so much stress, take care." which kinda pissed me off because he didn't really cause me any stress he just annoyed me and from his previous replies I'd say he was the one stressed over it. Anyway the last time I was hoping someone awesome had pm'd me and wanted to chat was annoying for it just to be that...now that is disappointing. I just replied back "ditto" lol.

But anyway I don't mind pm'ing or email really it just takes me a few days to reply...but if people are gonna expect quicker replies and be upset when they don't get them they really need to swallow their fears and start using an instant messaging program. But besides that heres part of what I said in my post where I was looking for friends:

"I'd prefer someone good at 1-1 conversation...most of the time with people I feel I'm carrying the whole conversation. But I need someone that doesn't mind if I take a few minutes to reply at times, because I usually am playing wow while on IM lol. Anyway even if you aren't good at conversation its ok. I use msn messenger and don't have aim or yahoo"

So I sure don't know how this person came to the conclusion that I was looking more for email/pm friends then people to chat with. Of course maybe they contacted me because they knew I liked cats and they never saw that post...but then they said in their pm that they thought I was looking for people to talk to so I don't know.

Heh theres actually a topic on the forums about over analyzing things...thats so me. This really doesn't matter that much but I tend to over analyze everything I do that has some form of social action.

I want everyone to be miserable hehe

So found out my last ex quit his guild of which he was the gm of and quit wow too. He also deleted his twitters, both his guilds and his own along with deleting his guilds website. His own website is still up though. He doesn't mention quitting his guild or why he quit but it shows his last few twitter updates on there and his last one said that he was helping his fiancee move in tomorrow and there was no longer anything about him playing wow on his site under where it said interests. Sigh bet that he quit because he was finally bored of wow and wanted to spend more time with her. Was hoping he quit because he had a falling out with his guildys. Well guess I'll never know what happened. Anyway I checked his realm forums and his guild is recruiting with a new guild website up now. I really really hope he had a falling out with them. Also hope his relationship with his fiancee crumbles before they get married. Would be so awesome if he ended up completely miserable. I found out through googling his sn name months ago that he was with a different girl before her and very shortly after him and I broke up. They had an online relationship for a while then he moved to be with her, he met her first online in wow. It was probably the girl I was soooo jealous of when him and I were together because he always chose to group with her over me in wow. She dumped him a few months after he moved to be with her, reading that made me soooo happy. Karma :D hehehe. And hopefully this relationship now won't last either. I want him to be alone and miserable and regret mistreating me because I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he'll never find anyone as awesome as me again. No I'd never take him back I just don't want him, or anybody who treated me badly before to be happy. Other peoples misery, especially that of people who hurt me before thrills me to no end, makes me giddy :D Was also happy when I found out before my best friend that I knew since childhood broke up with his bf and when I ruined one of his friendships years after I found out about all the lies (think I wrote about him in the beginning of my diary):D Anyway I was even happy when I found out someone online who had been rude to me before broke up with her bf, or rather he broke up with her and was rather mean to her. Even though I've talked to her bf before and know he's worse then her so I'm hoping he's miserable too. Anyway I love it when bad things happen to bad people lol...and since most people are bad that means I usually love when bad things happen to people.

Anyway speaking of people...one of my online friends told me last night that he cut off contact with a girl he met online and met in person a few times because he didn't see the point in being friends with someone he didn't see in person. So I was like am I next then and he said "Maybe but you have SA too so maybe not." So I was all quiet after that and now I'm not sure what to do, thinking maybe I should cut him off first. Not that it matters a ton to me cause its not someone I got really close to but still whenever something like that happens my feelings are always hurt a little.

I'm Epic!

Finally got my epic achievement in world of warcraft yesterday :D The last one I needed and had been needing for weeks was ranged (which since I play a druid means idol). I lost the roll on it, but luckily my guildy who was the only only feral on the run passed it to me because its a dps idol and he's more tanking then dps. Personally I think he passed more so because he remembered the time weeks ago when I passed on the tier 7 legs that dropped since they were a bigger upgrade for him then me.

I also got almost all of the childrens week achievements done now. The school of hard knocks ones weren't nearly as hard as I thought they would be. The ab one I got first, that one was easy, I just ninja capped the stables while my team was fighting, lol. The wsg one...that was funny, a horde was picking up and dropping our flag just to help us get the achievement. <3 that hordy. The eos and av ones provided a bit more difficult but still not too bad. The eos one the first day I tried it there were so many just going in mid to get the flag and I couldn't click it fast enough to grab before the others. And also were jerks who refused to cap the flag just so some of us couldn't get the achievement. So tried it again last night and got it in my first game, was a few others going for the flag early on and lots of horde there at first but towards the end of the game horde had 2 towers and us 2 but we were far behind from only having 1 most of the game. Anyway towards the end alliance tried to get more towers then the 2 we had but we were already so far behind I just went mid since no one else was there and grabbed flag and capped it. The AV one was the one that somewhat sucked, it took me like 5 or 6 games to get it and we only won 1 of those games. So many people were going for towers for the achievement. In the 2nd game I even was capping the tower but horde won before I could finish so took me the 4 or 5 more games to get the achivment :(

I did the "Hail to the King" achievement too. And got a mostly guild run for it. This one guildy who went with me was horrid bad though. I know that sounds mean but listen. He was doing less then 900 dps, and he's a hunter in almost full epics. I mentioned it to him after the run not to be mean or anything but I honestly figured he didn't know how little he was doing, or that maybe he was doing so badly because he forgot something or was experimenting with a new spec or something. I didn't bring it up like "you suck" I said something like "did you know you only did like 900 dps in there?" he said it was because he was playing with a not fully leveled up pet(in a heroic lol) and because he had to go afk a few times and we wouldn't wait(he only went afk like 3 times and not for long enough for it to make his dps be so below the rest of ours). Then he said "don't worry you're not the only guildy to tell me I suck" I never told him he sucks though, just that his dps was below what it should be to run heroics. Anyway that was the end of that or so I thought. But the next day he whisperers me all angry and emo like saying "I was wondering why you felt the need to point out my low dps last night" (I only pointed it out to him). I said what I said last night that it was below what it should be to run heroics and I thought he might want to know so he can figure out how to up it. He got mad and defensive instead and said "what does it matter if we finished the run" and then even tried to tell me that he was doing me a favor by going on the run! The nerve. For 1 he needed the achievement too, for 2 he was dps and dps is easy to find. I asked him why he was getting so upset/defensive and he said "because its not the 1rst, 2nd or even 3rd time I have gone on a run as a favor with a guildy and they have mentioned my dps as being low". I said "Well then no offense but maybe you need to improve then, try a different spec or pet or something, your gear is good enough where you should easily be doing double or even triple the dps you're doing now". He then went on to say "well I could tell you how to improve yours too but I won't do that." To that I was like"......" I couldn't believe him, on the run we went on I went as balance (I normally run as feral) and I know I need to improve on my balance rotations, but still even as balance and not knowing my rotations that well I almost tripled his dps. I pointed out that in our nax 25 runs I'm always top or near top dps and hes bottom. He then said "I wasn't last, and they still let me go to nax with my dps being what it is" Now maybe he wasn't bottom (my meter only records the top 10, but I do know he was under the main tank, because the main tank was number 10 on my meter, if he wasn't last he still wasn't doing well. And the others below the main tank at least were all undergeared(we have wayyyyyy too many undergeared people in this guild...but thats a rant for another time). As if them taking him on the run means anything though, this guild takes anyone whos online and signed up for it. Thankfully they don't just take anyone for the uldaur runs, not that we get far in there anyway. Anyway I was only trying to help him because like I said I figured he honestly didn't know how low his dps was. But he had to have a fit about it, he even said "don't worry I won't volunteer to go on any runs with you again" After enough crap from him I said to him "well don't you want to contribute and not get carried by everyone". He kept saying how I shouldn't have told him his dps was low blah blah blah so I finally said "ok I'm sorry, I thought you didn't know and would want to improve, I know if I was doing such low dps I'd want to know, but I guess I was wrong, I won't mention it again".

Anyway other then that not much going on with me. Made another new online friend. I've been making quite a few online friends lately, mostly through a forum I go to. Hopefully some of them will actually last. Guess if I keep people at a distance it might work because then I won't be as upset and cut them off when I find out their lying to me or something. There was a post on the forum I go to recently that got me thinking though...it asked if we'd rather the forum was public or private. And I know I'd rather it was a private forum then public like most of it is now. Reason being as you can probably tell, I'm a very open person, I've mistakenly given the forum link to people years ago who I though I would be friends with forever or at least wouldn't end up being jerks. Anyway now I'm somewhat worried that 1 or more of those people may be going to the forum and reading my posts. I don't think I'm being paranoid either because it happened in the past to me not once or twice but a few times. 1 of the last people I gave the link to was Josh and he logged in on the site a few days after we stopped being friends. Anyway even if he or Rich or anyone else I used to know reads my posts I guess it doesn't really matter too much, only thing is I don't want any of them knowing I'm still hurt by them.