Wills visit went awesome :) Really enjoyed all the time we spent together. Did alot of things ;) We saw 2 movies, played ouija board, drove around some, walked around hyde park some, took some pics and even tried (not very successfully) to read each others palms with the instructions he got out of some books (ok book since the one book sucked) he borrowed from his local library before the visit.
We were worried he wouldn't be able to make the visit at first :( But thankfully he was able to. :) His car was having problems and he had to take it in to the mechanics. Luckily they worked on it on the same day he took it in (which was day before our visit) and it was ready in time. What pisses me off though is his parents have a van and another car and said they wouldn't let him borrow either (he had asked because he was worried his car would not be fixed in time).
He arrived late Wednesday (the 11th) around 5, it would've been earlier but he didn't get his car back until late the night before and had to put the stuff in it, etc, he still managed to forget his cooler though lol. Plus he really procrastinated on the packing lol. Anyway first day we hung out at the hotel ;) (hey don't look at me that way I'm still a virgin) and saw a movie. Also he had bought me a few boxes of yummy hamburger helper from a grocery store near him. :) Cheddar cheese melt. They stopped selling it near me so I asked him to check near him and he was sweet enough to get some on his way here :)
Movie we saw was Fourth Kind. It was alright. Was about alien abduction in a small town in Alaska, it claimed to be a documentary and was even claiming some of the footage was from actual alien abductees. But I researched it some online and it says theres no actual evidence of it ever happening. Movie also seemed to not have a very clear cut story line till more then halfway through it. Was still a decent movie but I was very disappointed, would love to see another movie about an actual alien abduction like Fire In The Sky. Now that was a good movie and based on a true story too, still remains one of my all time favorite movies along side the Chucky doll movies, Frequency, The Butterfly Effect and The Homeward Bound movies heh. I should watch it online together with Will sometimes, I bet he'd like it and I wouldn't mind seeing it again either. :)
2nd day, Thursday we mostly hung around my house and the hotel and went for a drive and played some ouija. Speaking of ouija pretty much just got gibberish everytime when we did it on this visit, like last visit only worse. Though did get a ghost claiming to be Furby again. At least this time it went to "No" when I asked if she blamed me for her death.
We also went to the local grocery store to check for hamburger helper in case my mom was lying about them not selling it anymore lol. Shes telling the truth cause we saw boxes of other types of hamburger helper but not the cheddar cheese melt one. I also bought a ton of magazines there which I had to have Will help pay for cause I didn't have enough money(paid him back when I got home). Bought like 7 or 8 true story magazines that cost almost 30 dollars. Don't feel bad about spending so much though because I hadn't gotten any in weeks or even months and my mom spends more then that on cigarettes. Also tried to win a Stewie (from Family Guy duh) doll out of the stuffed animal machines lol. Spent like 10 dollars of my money on that damn machine and a few dollars of Will's too. Had no luck winning it which sucked :( There were 2 Stewie dolls but both against the sides of the machine though which makes them even more difficult to get so I didn't use all my tries on them, also tried to win some christmasy stuffed animals. Would've been nice to win 1 to give to Will but had no luck :( Sucks cause I used to actually be pretty good at those things and would always win something after spending a few bucks, guess I lost my touch or they somehow made them more difficult grr.
Ordered pizza and cheese fries for dinner from the pizza place near me. He wishes he had pizza places that good near him. They have just about every kind of pizza there you can imagine and you can even chose your own toppings. We normally get the 3 cheese cheeseburger 1 http://www.justpizzausa.com/menu.asp Is delicious, my only complaint is they don't seem to put much sauce on it (in fact last few times I couldn't even taste sauce on it). Will loves it anyway though. :) After dinner we went back to the hotel and cuddled some while watching Survivor and Fringe :) Neither show that he watches but he said they were good. Also drove around some and played ouija some more.
And he watched me play wow some too on Thursday and I impressed him with my mad skills at soloing heroic sethekk halls. Actually maybe impressed isn't the right word since I died on the trash while doing it lol but I blame him for distracting me :P And did kill the boss. He didn't drop the mount though :(
Have only just started to run heroic sethekk daily about 2 weeks ago since I now need just 1 more mount for the 100 mount achievement. Thanks to Will talking about mounts a few weeks ago I found out I actually forgot to buy some (ok alot) of the racial ones so I went and bought all the ones I was missing hoping it'd get me to 100, only got me to 99 though :( Hope I'm not missing another rep mount or something else I could easily get, that would really suck.
Also he saw me nude! ........Was just a baby pic though lol. Can't believe I forgot about that pic being in there. Was showing him pics of me when I was a baby and child and some from late teens and early 20s) Think I bored him a bit lol. Now hes gotta bring some baby pics of his on next visit. :)
Friday was a very eventful day and we did a bunch of stuff. We hung out around my house some playing ouija cause my mom wasn't home and then I cooked a meal for Will and me. I made Chicken nuggets and onion rings :) He must've liked it cause he ate alot :) I'm glad he likes my cooking...though I didn't really do anything but put frozen nuggets and onion rings in the oven lol. Maybe next time I'll try to make something more complicated. Feel bad for not making more meals for him on visit.
Then we were gonna see the 4 something showing of the new movie 2012 but I wanted to get some pics of us so I bugged Will enough and he agreed to go to hyde park for some pics. he was glad he did in the end though :) Might post them on my blog later. Unfortunately most of the ones where he looks good I look crappy or vice versa lol. But theres a few good ones of both us I think. Was even fun walking around there with him. Glad the weather wasn't too hot or cold.
We went to 2012 around 8 or so. The theater was packed, either because it was release day or because it was Friday night or because it was such a good movie or all of the above. I almost considered asking Will to leave with me because it was so crowded and I was worried about running into someone I used to know. But then I would've been disappointed and angry with myself since those tickets cost Will 20 dollars plus I did really want to see the movie. Actually for a brief second thought I saw Jerry but thankfully was a false alarm, was just someone that looked alot like him.
Anyway we had trouble finding seats at first because it was so crowded. First we found 2 seats and tried to sit down but someone said they were saving the seats. Felt a bit annoyed because especially in such a packed theater their friends or whoever they were saving the seats for should've been there. Luckily there was some other seats we found that were also good but if those "saved" seats had been the last good seats left I would've taken them anyway. I may have anxiety but I won't ever let myself go without anything because of someone elses selfishness. It may have started a fight but the usher was patrolling around anyway and you can't legally save seats for someone at the movies.
Anyway it took a while but we found 2 good seats in the middle of the theater. Unfortunately we had people next to us on both sides. The usher came in during the previews and told everyone they better not talk or have their cells ringing or they'd be kicked out so luckily everyone was pretty much quiet during the movie. Had to admit I was worried people would be noisy during it since there was so many people I figured someone was bound to ruin it. Didn't stop a few people from checking their text messages during the movie though I noticed. was a lil distracting/annoying to see the bright glare from it, I mean geez couldn't they wait?
Movie was really good and we even held hands during some of it :) Even liked the way movie ended. (Won't spoil it for anyone who wants to see). Wonder if something like that will ever come true in 2012. I was reading up on the mayans and supposedly they predicted alot of other stuff accurately though I can't remember what now but a show I watched on them on youtube named a bunch of stuff. But then again if they could predict stuff why didn't they predict their own demise? lol. Think I'll celebrate December 21, 2012 by watching this movie again and a bunch of other end of the world movies on that date.
We drove around some after the movie for fun at my suggestion since we wanted something to do and were kinda burnt out on ouija and palm reading. Drove for over an hour, maybe even over 2, left Niagara Falls and went way out in Amherst and North Tonawanda and stuff. Mostly stayed on the blvd so we didn't get lost but we turned down some side streets and stuff trying to find something creepy to get abducted by aliens on lol. Didn't get abducted but did come across this really creepy looking house that looked to me like it was haunted or something. Couldn't remember the name of the street or anything though but I'd been wanting to find it on google maps the past few days now. We remembered it was near a church and luckily Will remembered more then me because he remembered it was off Niagara Falls Blvd and how the street looked so he was able to find it on google maps when I couldn't. Was even more creeped out when we saw the google maps picture (go here if you wanna see) http://maps.google.com/maps?f=q&source=s_q&hl=en&geocode=&q=414+Old+Falls+Blvd&sll=43.347152,-79.120789&sspn=1.424074,2.419739&ie=UTF8&hq=&hnear=414+Old+Falls+Blvd,+North+Tonawanda,+Niagara,+New+York+14120&ll=43.051197,-78.832577&spn=0.001446,0.002363&t=h&z=19&layer=c&cbll=43.051102,-78.832574&panoid=ISVZawes2jo9fcVLe1mgiQ&cbp=12,277.28,,0,-0.42 because the house is burned in it and has boards on all the windows! When we drove by it it definitely wasn't burned or boarded up in fact in looked like someone lived in it because there was a light on. Wonder if maybe I'm right about the house being haunted and I somehow sensed it or at least sensed something bad had happened there. Also wonder how old these google satellite images are, some of the houses near it had Halloween decorations up but I doubt it was Halloween of this year. They should'nt be more then 3 years old though because google maps shows the store that was rebuilt over my old house in 2006. Though I guess some areas could be newer then others, wish it said dates they were from.
Also Friday was Wills first kiss and my first grown up kiss too :) Was good. Think I much prefer cuddling and stuff though. And we cuddled alot on the visit while watching tv. :D Really felt happy and loved :) Only bad thing is now I miss him even more since visit.
Saturday we spent a few hours together too before he left. Just hung out here since he had checked out of his motel. Sucked my mom had the day off but she went to do grocery shopping thankfully so me and Will got some last time alone to cuddle. We then went to target to get Will the wrath expac for wow. We were originally gonna go to walmart but I couldn't remember where it was and we couldn't find it, which I guess was a good thing because when I got back home my mom told me she ran into Jerry on the bus and thought he was headed to Walmart.
After target he dropped me off and we hugged a bunch before he headed home. Watched him drive away and was happy we had the visit but very sad he was leaving. We've talked some about him possibly visiting again in December or early January but we don't know if it will happen. For one he would need to stay here since he would have to take a bus here since it will be too cold and possibly icy and dangerous to drive in and I can't seem to get a straight answer from my mom (grrr hate her) as to whether or not he can stay here. Also think money might be an issue since I'm sure he just spent alot on his last visit :( But glad we had this visit was an awesome time and I'd say some of the best days of my life, especially Friday which now ranks as best day of my life :)
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Saturday, November 21, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Will is awesome and playing WOW with him is awesome too :D
As some of you may know, Will posted a topic in the triumphs forum on SAS about us :D I'm so happy that he wants everyone to know we're together :D It also helps me trust him alot more too. Cause with me if someone isn't being public about me being their girlfriend my trust in them is like zero. Not to say I trust him 100%, trusting anyone 100% would be foolish. Things between us have been pretty good lately though :)
Anyway as I said in my last blog entry that I was gonna make my own guild for me and Will and I did :) I joined on all of my toons lol. But its just a guild for banking so we have the shared bank space and it makes it easier to chat in game when we're not grouped. Because just whispering can be risky at times lol since with whispers it can be kinda easy to mistell it to the wrong person if you aren't very careful. And trust me some of the stuff I say to him I would not want to accidentally send to anybody else ;) LOL. Anyway I already purchased 2 bank tabs for our guild. I used up 1 whole 1 all on my own and some of tab 2 too already. Might finally be able to delete 1 or 2 of my 3 bank toons now since we have this guild. Been adding stuff from each toon and trying to slowly get it organized. Before I would have scrolls and stuff scattered across all 3 bank toons, now I'm mostly getting stuff like that into stacks of 20 and then putting them on one toon until I decide to use.
Getting sigs for the bank guild though....ugh. Despite finding a crap load of unguilded people around it was extremely difficult. I had Will sign of course, then I tried to have him sign on another toon and it wouldn't let him :( So retarded, if we wanna make a guild with just us 2 we should so be able to, I see no good reason why it has to force us to go out and seek 8 other people to sign our charter. Would've had my 2 wow friends sign on their unguilded alts but neither was on at the time and I really really wanted to get the guild made right away lol. Anyway to get the first few sigs I offered people 5 gold to sign. Got 6 sigs that way. Unfortunately 2 of them removed their sigs before I had enough to turn in the charter. Fucking assholes. The one rogue even said in party (we grouped with him briefly) lol before he left and removed his sig. People like that should be fucking shot. God I hate people. Except Will of course :) Anyway after that I wasn't gonna pay anyone else, though did pay the last signer 1 gold :(. I just decided if people are gonna be jerks I'll have to be rude. And I pretty much just shoved the charter in every unguilded persons face that I saw until I had all the rest of the sigs I needed. Took a while because most declined to sign grr. Anyway I don't wanna say here what the guilds name is but I picked a good one. I still need to pick us out a guild tabard too :D
Another annoying thing was about half the people stayed in the guild and kept asking for help. Will got kinda carried away with helping them and it annoyed me cause he was supposed to be doing stuff with me lol, so I booted everyone else out of the guild. Felt a lil bad about it, but I paid half of them anyway and it seemed like that would've been a constant case of lowbies asking for help. Besides didn't wanna make a real guild anyway, just wanted a shared bank and such for Will and I.
In other WOW news I discovered something about the recruit a friend thing. Well ok actually Will did lol. I feel so dumb for not knowing this lol but he can grant levels to a toon of mine thats under his level. He can grant me 1 level for every 2 levels he gains. :D So without much thought I just had him level my pally up. Leveled it from 13 to 29 in a matter of minutes :D Too bad the gear didn't level with it LOL. Not entirely sure pally is a class I wanna play either, but already have a druid, lock, rogue, priest, deathknight all over level 30 and the only other class I think I'd enjoy any would be hunter. I tend not to like classes that can only dps, unless they have pets or demons :P. This is great because while I'm leveling my rogue with him my pally will also get free levels from it lol. Just wish he'd joined wow right after his trial ended so we'd have more of this and more time with the triple xp.
Also lock and rogue are level 34 and 35 now. I'm a little ahead still and probably will continue to be cause I bought some boa stuff that gives my rogue 20% xp gain. Haven't had too much time to level lately because of his darn work and school :( I'm surprised at how much I'm enjoying leveling with him, always thought leveling another toon, even with someone I knew would be boring beyond belief, but its actually very fun with him. A part of me wishes he didn't work or go to school so we could spend even more time together, but I guess then he probably wouldn't be able to afford to visit me again so guess its good that he does lol.
Got my loremaster achievement too finally. Turns out they added a new quest and that plus 1 quest I had already completed and still had to turn in were all I needed to do to finish the achivment. :D Now to figure out what achievement to work on next for my druid. Am thinking either sporegger or kureni rep achievements but not sure yet. And still haven't gotten brewmaster and my meta achievement yet but should tomorrow :D
Anyway unto non wow stuff lol. Enjoying more season premieres this week :) Desperate Housewives and Brothers and Sisters were both on last night, both awesome. Also watched the season premiere of Ghost Whisperer on Friday. Can't believe they skipped 5 years into the future. Ugh so annoying when shows do stuff like that, first Desperate Housewives last season now Ghost Whisperer, hope its not gonna be happening with other shows I like too.
Also watched a new show a couple days ago called Flash Forward. Was awesome, I think it will become the new Lost. The opening scene definitely seemed very lostish and so does the mystery in it. Can't wait for the next episode. Just too bad I have to download it off bittorrent since Survivor is on at the same time. Blah. Why are all the best shows always on Thursdays? Anyway I wonder who the guy at the end was (the guy moving while everyone else was flashing forward) I'm sure they'll wait a long long time to tell us lol.
In sad news..one of my aunts has the shingles. I thought it was some olden thing that was only around in the 1800s but guess I was wrong. Apparently she has it on the inside too and is in alot of pain, hopefully she'll be ok. I haven't seen her in years though but my grandma sees her and my uncle (my moms brother) regularly. Think I've mentioned before but my family isn't close at all. Anyway thats all for now,
Anyway as I said in my last blog entry that I was gonna make my own guild for me and Will and I did :) I joined on all of my toons lol. But its just a guild for banking so we have the shared bank space and it makes it easier to chat in game when we're not grouped. Because just whispering can be risky at times lol since with whispers it can be kinda easy to mistell it to the wrong person if you aren't very careful. And trust me some of the stuff I say to him I would not want to accidentally send to anybody else ;) LOL. Anyway I already purchased 2 bank tabs for our guild. I used up 1 whole 1 all on my own and some of tab 2 too already. Might finally be able to delete 1 or 2 of my 3 bank toons now since we have this guild. Been adding stuff from each toon and trying to slowly get it organized. Before I would have scrolls and stuff scattered across all 3 bank toons, now I'm mostly getting stuff like that into stacks of 20 and then putting them on one toon until I decide to use.
Getting sigs for the bank guild though....ugh. Despite finding a crap load of unguilded people around it was extremely difficult. I had Will sign of course, then I tried to have him sign on another toon and it wouldn't let him :( So retarded, if we wanna make a guild with just us 2 we should so be able to, I see no good reason why it has to force us to go out and seek 8 other people to sign our charter. Would've had my 2 wow friends sign on their unguilded alts but neither was on at the time and I really really wanted to get the guild made right away lol. Anyway to get the first few sigs I offered people 5 gold to sign. Got 6 sigs that way. Unfortunately 2 of them removed their sigs before I had enough to turn in the charter. Fucking assholes. The one rogue even said in party (we grouped with him briefly) lol before he left and removed his sig. People like that should be fucking shot. God I hate people. Except Will of course :) Anyway after that I wasn't gonna pay anyone else, though did pay the last signer 1 gold :(. I just decided if people are gonna be jerks I'll have to be rude. And I pretty much just shoved the charter in every unguilded persons face that I saw until I had all the rest of the sigs I needed. Took a while because most declined to sign grr. Anyway I don't wanna say here what the guilds name is but I picked a good one. I still need to pick us out a guild tabard too :D
Another annoying thing was about half the people stayed in the guild and kept asking for help. Will got kinda carried away with helping them and it annoyed me cause he was supposed to be doing stuff with me lol, so I booted everyone else out of the guild. Felt a lil bad about it, but I paid half of them anyway and it seemed like that would've been a constant case of lowbies asking for help. Besides didn't wanna make a real guild anyway, just wanted a shared bank and such for Will and I.
In other WOW news I discovered something about the recruit a friend thing. Well ok actually Will did lol. I feel so dumb for not knowing this lol but he can grant levels to a toon of mine thats under his level. He can grant me 1 level for every 2 levels he gains. :D So without much thought I just had him level my pally up. Leveled it from 13 to 29 in a matter of minutes :D Too bad the gear didn't level with it LOL. Not entirely sure pally is a class I wanna play either, but already have a druid, lock, rogue, priest, deathknight all over level 30 and the only other class I think I'd enjoy any would be hunter. I tend not to like classes that can only dps, unless they have pets or demons :P. This is great because while I'm leveling my rogue with him my pally will also get free levels from it lol. Just wish he'd joined wow right after his trial ended so we'd have more of this and more time with the triple xp.
Also lock and rogue are level 34 and 35 now. I'm a little ahead still and probably will continue to be cause I bought some boa stuff that gives my rogue 20% xp gain. Haven't had too much time to level lately because of his darn work and school :( I'm surprised at how much I'm enjoying leveling with him, always thought leveling another toon, even with someone I knew would be boring beyond belief, but its actually very fun with him. A part of me wishes he didn't work or go to school so we could spend even more time together, but I guess then he probably wouldn't be able to afford to visit me again so guess its good that he does lol.
Got my loremaster achievement too finally. Turns out they added a new quest and that plus 1 quest I had already completed and still had to turn in were all I needed to do to finish the achivment. :D Now to figure out what achievement to work on next for my druid. Am thinking either sporegger or kureni rep achievements but not sure yet. And still haven't gotten brewmaster and my meta achievement yet but should tomorrow :D
Anyway unto non wow stuff lol. Enjoying more season premieres this week :) Desperate Housewives and Brothers and Sisters were both on last night, both awesome. Also watched the season premiere of Ghost Whisperer on Friday. Can't believe they skipped 5 years into the future. Ugh so annoying when shows do stuff like that, first Desperate Housewives last season now Ghost Whisperer, hope its not gonna be happening with other shows I like too.
Also watched a new show a couple days ago called Flash Forward. Was awesome, I think it will become the new Lost. The opening scene definitely seemed very lostish and so does the mystery in it. Can't wait for the next episode. Just too bad I have to download it off bittorrent since Survivor is on at the same time. Blah. Why are all the best shows always on Thursdays? Anyway I wonder who the guy at the end was (the guy moving while everyone else was flashing forward) I'm sure they'll wait a long long time to tell us lol.
In sad news..one of my aunts has the shingles. I thought it was some olden thing that was only around in the 1800s but guess I was wrong. Apparently she has it on the inside too and is in alot of pain, hopefully she'll be ok. I haven't seen her in years though but my grandma sees her and my uncle (my moms brother) regularly. Think I've mentioned before but my family isn't close at all. Anyway thats all for now,
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Will's Visit :)
Will's visit went pretty good :) But was over way too soon :( The first day (Friday) he didn't get to my house till around 5ish. He fails because when he got to the hotel he went to go out to eat first with his parents, and because they didn't have their passports so couldn't take the shorter route which would be through canada. :P Was hoping he'd arrive around 1 or 2 :( Anyway his parents drove him to my house, my mom wanted to meet them/him so she went out there with me to their car and said Hi I'm Stephanies mom blah blah. lol. His parents seemed pretty nice, well his mom at least, his dad seemed a bit standoffish and seemed maybe he didn't like me much. Bet he thinks I'm dumb too for not knowing my way around the city I've lived my whole life in.
Anyway after that they drove us to the falls. We got kinda lost lol. I felt kinda dumb that I couldn't help with directions because I've lived here my whole life. But I never really go anywhere. We split up from his parents once they parked but it seemed kinda like his dad followed us around some lol he kept seeming to find us. Anyway we wanted to go on the maid of the mist but we didn't really know where to go for it and by time we thought we figured it out it was too late for it.
We walked around the falls a ton, he took a few pictures and I had brought my digital camera along so so did I. He had his parents take a couple of us together too. He should've taken more pictures of the falls though, I guess he didn't see the point since he'll be coming back here sometime :P But still next time he comes the weather will probably be cold so yea he should've taken more pics. Hopefully his parents took alot more. Wish we could've gone over to the canadian side too but he didn't have his passport :(
Anyway we walked around the falls for like 3 or 4 hours. My legs were killing me and so were my feet! Especially since I was wearing my new sneakers. Speaking of my legs...I regret buying that one pair of jeans. They slid down on me too much and ended up rubbing against my thighs, now I have a bit of a rash there :( Ugh wish I could just for once find some jeans that fit perfectly. At least the ones I wore the next day weren't too bad. Anyway his parents wanted to stay a little longer at the falls, like maybe till the fireworks at 10 (on the canadian side they've been doing fireworks every friday at 10) but guess they decided against it because we left a little earlier then that. Not sure if canada is still doing the fireworks anymore because I don't recall hearing them at 10 either. Maybe they stopped since its September now. Before they left his parents went to the giftshop and got some stuff I think. William didn't go in and get anything though. Gah I should've insisted he get something! Well, maybe I can get him something from there sometime then :)
Anyway after we were done walking around the falls his parents dropped him off here and we hung out for a few more hours here. Unfortunately with my mom :( Kinda wish she would've gone back in her room at least lol. We had no alone time that whole day. Anyway the 3 of us watched a movie together. HG Wells The Time Machine. Was pretty good, not that I paid much attention to it. Anyway we probably could've played the ouija board that night but he didn't bring it with him :( He failed! Well, guess it was partially my fault since my mom had said she didn't want it in this house. But still, we don't need to listen to her. And had we played that night we would've then had time to go on the maid of the mist the next day. My mom brought us a pizza and some cheese fries back for dinner. 3 cheese hamburger pizza, he loved it despite them not putting any sauce on it. It was pretty good, but I wish they would've put sauce on it. In the menu it says they do yet whenever we order it theres never sauce on it. His parents picked him up around midnight and he went back to the hotel then.
He came over next day around 10:30am (wanted it to be earlier!) We were maybe gonna go on the maid of the mist but on the phone we decided not to because we still hadn't had a chance to play the ouija board and we really wanted to do that. He was leaving around 2 or 3ish so we would've only had time to do 1. Anyway we played for about 3 hours.
Wrote down some of our results. At first we had no luck at all. So we (well mostly him) visualized a bunch of energy flowing through the room or whatever. After that it worked. I was a little shocked but not too much, I'd always believed that if I ever played with 1 it would work. He on the other hand must've been very shocked, he played 1 by himself before and never had any results. That was his first time playing it with another person and my first time playing it ever. Anyway he wrote down most the sessions we did, we didn't write down the first few though. Got some interesting results but alot of gibberish too lol and our first few very quickly went to Bye. Had 1 tell us our dates of death when we asked, a demon, something from another planet that had numerous arms and ears, and a spirit that claimed to be a cat I had. I'll probably make another post later detailing more of our ouija board sessions. :)
Anyway before he had to go we made it go to "goodbye" and closed the board. He tried to visualize anything negative or that would mean us harm being forced out of the house. I kept laughing though so he couldn't really concentrate on it lol. I'm soo bad. Then he got up and we hugged and I walked him out side. His parents were already there, I awkwardly snuck in another hug with them while they watched lol. Then they drove away, I watched them drive away for a few minutes and felt sad already. He's so sweet he called me soon as I got in the house to make sure I got in ok :) <3
He posted some pics on the board from our meetup. They came out surprisingly well (his parents take good pics). I usually hate any pics of me but really like these ones. I'd look hot in them if I was skinnier lol. Will looks ok in them too but he didn't photograph as well as me in them lol, like his pics from before much better.
Anyway thats all for now I'll have to write the post about the ouija board sessions later as well as a post about wow cause I quit my guild and am now guildless lol.
Anyway after that they drove us to the falls. We got kinda lost lol. I felt kinda dumb that I couldn't help with directions because I've lived here my whole life. But I never really go anywhere. We split up from his parents once they parked but it seemed kinda like his dad followed us around some lol he kept seeming to find us. Anyway we wanted to go on the maid of the mist but we didn't really know where to go for it and by time we thought we figured it out it was too late for it.
We walked around the falls a ton, he took a few pictures and I had brought my digital camera along so so did I. He had his parents take a couple of us together too. He should've taken more pictures of the falls though, I guess he didn't see the point since he'll be coming back here sometime :P But still next time he comes the weather will probably be cold so yea he should've taken more pics. Hopefully his parents took alot more. Wish we could've gone over to the canadian side too but he didn't have his passport :(
Anyway we walked around the falls for like 3 or 4 hours. My legs were killing me and so were my feet! Especially since I was wearing my new sneakers. Speaking of my legs...I regret buying that one pair of jeans. They slid down on me too much and ended up rubbing against my thighs, now I have a bit of a rash there :( Ugh wish I could just for once find some jeans that fit perfectly. At least the ones I wore the next day weren't too bad. Anyway his parents wanted to stay a little longer at the falls, like maybe till the fireworks at 10 (on the canadian side they've been doing fireworks every friday at 10) but guess they decided against it because we left a little earlier then that. Not sure if canada is still doing the fireworks anymore because I don't recall hearing them at 10 either. Maybe they stopped since its September now. Before they left his parents went to the giftshop and got some stuff I think. William didn't go in and get anything though. Gah I should've insisted he get something! Well, maybe I can get him something from there sometime then :)
Anyway after we were done walking around the falls his parents dropped him off here and we hung out for a few more hours here. Unfortunately with my mom :( Kinda wish she would've gone back in her room at least lol. We had no alone time that whole day. Anyway the 3 of us watched a movie together. HG Wells The Time Machine. Was pretty good, not that I paid much attention to it. Anyway we probably could've played the ouija board that night but he didn't bring it with him :( He failed! Well, guess it was partially my fault since my mom had said she didn't want it in this house. But still, we don't need to listen to her. And had we played that night we would've then had time to go on the maid of the mist the next day. My mom brought us a pizza and some cheese fries back for dinner. 3 cheese hamburger pizza, he loved it despite them not putting any sauce on it. It was pretty good, but I wish they would've put sauce on it. In the menu it says they do yet whenever we order it theres never sauce on it. His parents picked him up around midnight and he went back to the hotel then.
He came over next day around 10:30am (wanted it to be earlier!) We were maybe gonna go on the maid of the mist but on the phone we decided not to because we still hadn't had a chance to play the ouija board and we really wanted to do that. He was leaving around 2 or 3ish so we would've only had time to do 1. Anyway we played for about 3 hours.
Wrote down some of our results. At first we had no luck at all. So we (well mostly him) visualized a bunch of energy flowing through the room or whatever. After that it worked. I was a little shocked but not too much, I'd always believed that if I ever played with 1 it would work. He on the other hand must've been very shocked, he played 1 by himself before and never had any results. That was his first time playing it with another person and my first time playing it ever. Anyway he wrote down most the sessions we did, we didn't write down the first few though. Got some interesting results but alot of gibberish too lol and our first few very quickly went to Bye. Had 1 tell us our dates of death when we asked, a demon, something from another planet that had numerous arms and ears, and a spirit that claimed to be a cat I had. I'll probably make another post later detailing more of our ouija board sessions. :)
Anyway before he had to go we made it go to "goodbye" and closed the board. He tried to visualize anything negative or that would mean us harm being forced out of the house. I kept laughing though so he couldn't really concentrate on it lol. I'm soo bad. Then he got up and we hugged and I walked him out side. His parents were already there, I awkwardly snuck in another hug with them while they watched lol. Then they drove away, I watched them drive away for a few minutes and felt sad already. He's so sweet he called me soon as I got in the house to make sure I got in ok :) <3
He posted some pics on the board from our meetup. They came out surprisingly well (his parents take good pics). I usually hate any pics of me but really like these ones. I'd look hot in them if I was skinnier lol. Will looks ok in them too but he didn't photograph as well as me in them lol, like his pics from before much better.
Anyway thats all for now I'll have to write the post about the ouija board sessions later as well as a post about wow cause I quit my guild and am now guildless lol.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Will's gonna visit this weekend!
So it looks like WIll and I will be meeting on labor day weekend after all. Turns out his parents thought it would be good to visit the falls for a day and a half. He's coming on Friday, they're leaving super early, around 6ish. And they're leaving the next day in the afternoon. Wish he was staying longer. The fastest way to get here is to drive through canada, its only 4 or 5 hours that way, but they don't have their passports so they'll be going the long way so they probably won't arrive until the afternoon.
Not sure what we'll do on the visit, probably won't have much privacy :/ Gonna play ouija board for sure I think, just not sure where. My mom hates them though so ugh where will we go to play it. His hotel room lol? But he's actually gonna be staying in amherst which is about 40 mins from me and not here because the rates are cheaper. Well whatever screw my mom, we'll play it here whether she likes it or not. Hopefully she'll have a long day at work that day too. Either his parents will take me back there to chill with him while they go off and do their own thing or they will drop him off here and come back. We haven't decided yet.
I'm so anxious about him visiting. Bet I won't be able to sleep at all the night before. But am also excited. Hope he likes offline me as much as he likes online me.
I think we should write a list of things to do and what questions to ask the ouija board.
Anyway in other news, I left the house yesterday for the first time in 10 months! Had to to go clothes shopping for friday and saturday, since I've gained so much weight in the past few years, most of it in the past year :/ All my jeans are now way too tight and I only had 2 pairs of stretchy pants that didn't look or fit that well (one was almost falling off me and extremely baggy). Hmm either it got bigger somehow or I lost weight since buying it 9 or 10 months ago. So anyway I bought 2 pairs of jeans. Would've gotten more but couldn't find anything that fit good. Apparently target doesn't carry jeans for shorter people. Pretty retarded because I'm 5'4 which isn't that the average height for most women anyway? Also got a few shirts, not that I needed them that much as most I had still fit me (think 90% of the weight I gained was in my hips/ass). Took some recent pics for Will and he still likes me, overweight and all :) He'd be a hypocrite not to though since he's overweight like me. Not that that stops most guys.
I got a new book to read too(I never really read books but it looked good, its Testimony by Anita Shreve). Don't know when I'll feel in the mood to read it. I got some peanut butter m&m's as well bought all 3 of their last ones they had there :D. And got some special magazine about Michael Jackson. Am hoping to be able to sell it for a profit in 10-20 years lol. My mom says it won't ever be worth anything but she don't know shit. Got new sneakers too, really needed those, hadn't gotten any in I think 3 years, if not longer.
Anyway had a bit of embarrassment when I went to go pay. Had never used my credit card before except for buying stuff online. So I didn't know how to put it through the scanner and I put it in the wrong way :( I wanted to die from the embarrassment. Why in the world didn't my mother demonstrate for me how to do it before we went out. I swear its like she enjoys watching me fail. A big part of the reason I'm so damn dependent on other people is because she won't help to teach me how to do anything on my own. If I ever do move out, I will most likely cut off all contact with her because I hate her for this and other things.
Anyway for a change, I'm not gonna write anything about that game you guys know I always play but I will say its been down all day for maintenance. :( My next blog entry might not be until after Will visits but we'll see.
Not sure what we'll do on the visit, probably won't have much privacy :/ Gonna play ouija board for sure I think, just not sure where. My mom hates them though so ugh where will we go to play it. His hotel room lol? But he's actually gonna be staying in amherst which is about 40 mins from me and not here because the rates are cheaper. Well whatever screw my mom, we'll play it here whether she likes it or not. Hopefully she'll have a long day at work that day too. Either his parents will take me back there to chill with him while they go off and do their own thing or they will drop him off here and come back. We haven't decided yet.
I'm so anxious about him visiting. Bet I won't be able to sleep at all the night before. But am also excited. Hope he likes offline me as much as he likes online me.
I think we should write a list of things to do and what questions to ask the ouija board.
Anyway in other news, I left the house yesterday for the first time in 10 months! Had to to go clothes shopping for friday and saturday, since I've gained so much weight in the past few years, most of it in the past year :/ All my jeans are now way too tight and I only had 2 pairs of stretchy pants that didn't look or fit that well (one was almost falling off me and extremely baggy). Hmm either it got bigger somehow or I lost weight since buying it 9 or 10 months ago. So anyway I bought 2 pairs of jeans. Would've gotten more but couldn't find anything that fit good. Apparently target doesn't carry jeans for shorter people. Pretty retarded because I'm 5'4 which isn't that the average height for most women anyway? Also got a few shirts, not that I needed them that much as most I had still fit me (think 90% of the weight I gained was in my hips/ass). Took some recent pics for Will and he still likes me, overweight and all :) He'd be a hypocrite not to though since he's overweight like me. Not that that stops most guys.
I got a new book to read too(I never really read books but it looked good, its Testimony by Anita Shreve). Don't know when I'll feel in the mood to read it. I got some peanut butter m&m's as well bought all 3 of their last ones they had there :D. And got some special magazine about Michael Jackson. Am hoping to be able to sell it for a profit in 10-20 years lol. My mom says it won't ever be worth anything but she don't know shit. Got new sneakers too, really needed those, hadn't gotten any in I think 3 years, if not longer.
Anyway had a bit of embarrassment when I went to go pay. Had never used my credit card before except for buying stuff online. So I didn't know how to put it through the scanner and I put it in the wrong way :( I wanted to die from the embarrassment. Why in the world didn't my mother demonstrate for me how to do it before we went out. I swear its like she enjoys watching me fail. A big part of the reason I'm so damn dependent on other people is because she won't help to teach me how to do anything on my own. If I ever do move out, I will most likely cut off all contact with her because I hate her for this and other things.
Anyway for a change, I'm not gonna write anything about that game you guys know I always play but I will say its been down all day for maintenance. :( My next blog entry might not be until after Will visits but we'll see.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Wow Stuff and Online Friends
I joined another guild already. This ones new, just formed like 2 weeks ago. Not sure how much I'll like it, but giving it a try. One thing I already dislike is their "No pugging" rule. I think they might be a bit too uncasual for me. They have less then 30 members too, and I'm the only druid so far. But on the bright side I've grouped with alot of the members before and they seem pretty alright. The person who invited me in says they're focused on achievements too so thats a plus. They raid late at nights too like 12 am server. Which is usually good for me, and a plus because this way I can watch my tv shows when they're on rather then having to download them.
Also I've made some new online friends in the past few weeks. Only 1 seems to be a decent conversationalist though and I think the others are ignoring me. I only got a few replies to my "looking for misanthropic people to talk to" thread. 1 was that guy I mentioned before that wanted to PM and got all upset that I wanted to talk on MSN. The other was a guy who I talked to 2 or 3 times and never heard from again. I'll give it more time before I start to think he's ignoring me for sure because it hasn't been that long yet. The other though...I used to be friends with him on AIM years ago and he was a bit of a jerk to me back then and always used to try to change my mind and convince me people weren't that bad. So the first time or 2 he contacted me recently I just ignored it. Then he sent me another 1 a few days ago asking why I was ignoring him. So I replied and said something like "Didn't we used to talk years ago and not really get along? Also Tbh I'm really only looking for misanthropic people to talk to." Then he replied back saying something like "I know how I was back then but I've changed and am more like you now I think" And said he'd really like to talk to me. I wasn't sure if I believed him or not but I agreed to talk to him and sent him my msn. That was a few days ago now, and he's not added me yet still. Makes me wonder what he wanted it for, hope he's not signing me up for spam or crap.
Speaking of friends...my one online friend who I've known since late 2005 recently moved from CA to Ohio to move back in with his parents because he'd been unemployed for a time and ran out of money to live alone in LA. :( Anyway he's pretty much the only online friend I talk to regularly and have kept for more then a year or two. But he mentioned us meeting one day once he gets a car. I was like cool but isn't Ohio like 8 hours away from me...come to find out its only 3 hours away. While I kinda would like to meet him someday theres a few problems. The one being that he doesn't know half of how bad my SA is, the other being my crappy sense of directions, he'll expect me to show him around or something...and I leave the house so little that I really won't know my way around, plus even if I did leave the house I wouldn't know because I have like no sense of direction. It will probably be at least a year or 2 before he can even afford a car (he doesn't have a job yet even) but still, just thinking about it causes my SA to act up.
Also I've made some new online friends in the past few weeks. Only 1 seems to be a decent conversationalist though and I think the others are ignoring me. I only got a few replies to my "looking for misanthropic people to talk to" thread. 1 was that guy I mentioned before that wanted to PM and got all upset that I wanted to talk on MSN. The other was a guy who I talked to 2 or 3 times and never heard from again. I'll give it more time before I start to think he's ignoring me for sure because it hasn't been that long yet. The other though...I used to be friends with him on AIM years ago and he was a bit of a jerk to me back then and always used to try to change my mind and convince me people weren't that bad. So the first time or 2 he contacted me recently I just ignored it. Then he sent me another 1 a few days ago asking why I was ignoring him. So I replied and said something like "Didn't we used to talk years ago and not really get along? Also Tbh I'm really only looking for misanthropic people to talk to." Then he replied back saying something like "I know how I was back then but I've changed and am more like you now I think" And said he'd really like to talk to me. I wasn't sure if I believed him or not but I agreed to talk to him and sent him my msn. That was a few days ago now, and he's not added me yet still. Makes me wonder what he wanted it for, hope he's not signing me up for spam or crap.
Speaking of friends...my one online friend who I've known since late 2005 recently moved from CA to Ohio to move back in with his parents because he'd been unemployed for a time and ran out of money to live alone in LA. :( Anyway he's pretty much the only online friend I talk to regularly and have kept for more then a year or two. But he mentioned us meeting one day once he gets a car. I was like cool but isn't Ohio like 8 hours away from me...come to find out its only 3 hours away. While I kinda would like to meet him someday theres a few problems. The one being that he doesn't know half of how bad my SA is, the other being my crappy sense of directions, he'll expect me to show him around or something...and I leave the house so little that I really won't know my way around, plus even if I did leave the house I wouldn't know because I have like no sense of direction. It will probably be at least a year or 2 before he can even afford a car (he doesn't have a job yet even) but still, just thinking about it causes my SA to act up.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Old PM's Depress Me
Cleaned out my PM box on a forum. Can't believe it was almost full. It was only sent pm's though that I deleted and don't think it was all of them. The board lost the other pm's about a year ago when they switched owners and whatever and somehow these pm's I sent got put in my inbox upon the switch. It would've been nice to read the ones people actually sent to me again before I lost those though. Anyway I don't think it was even all my sent pm's because I'm sure I sent much more then that. But nonetheless it was interesting to read them. I'm sad to say that I don't even remember most of the people I was pm'ing with back then. Did searches on the forums for them, only one is still around and they're using a new name. But of course the others could still be around on new names too and just not have said who they used to be.
Anyway they have this thing on the forum now where you can just click a check box next to each PM and download them to a text file so I did that because I really hate throwing stuff away even online. I never delete emails or anything like that unless I have no choice but to. But I still don't have alot of my old emails and stuff because I used to have webtv and use their email and then when they terminated it for non payment I lost everything. Wish I'd forwarded them all to another account but I guess now it would've been a waste if I had as at the time all I'd had for second accounts was yahoo and hotmail and I stupidly went 6 months without signing into both years later and lost everything. I thought my mom would eventually be able to pay that webtv bill though and get it back, never happened though LOL.
Anyway I rarely go back and read stuff because it always depresses me, but its still nice to have the option to. It felt weird seeing stuff I'd written from as far back as 2003-2005, things were very different for me then. Felt kinda depressed when I read one where I said I'd met this great guy online (my last ex) and how I was so happy. And other one where I was apologizing to this one person for not being on IM when I said I would be because my friend came over. Its somewhat hard for me to believe that I once had somewhat of a life. And I can't believe I don't even remember the person I was sending those pm's too, they seemed like someone I'd been knowing online for a while.
Speaking of keeping stuff, I wanna delete my myspace but I don't wanna lose all the messages from my sister that I have saved on there (we communicated though myspace not email) Anyway I could just copy and paste them to word pad and save but meh seems too much trouble. I just wanna delete my myspace so that she can't ever contact me again.....well that and so no one I used to know can find me. I changed it so my real name shouldn't bring up my myspace but for some reason on social networking search sites my profile still comes up when I search my name. Ugh. And yes I search myself, I'm one of my favorite people to stalk LOL, well not really I just wanna make sure no ones saying bad stuff about me.
Anyway speaking of pm's whats with some people. This one person the other day got upset with me because I took long to reply back to a pm. Well long in his opinion. It had only been a day and he pm'd me again saying something about he didn't get why I seemed uninterested. I told him I'm not too good with pm's or email and gave him my msn so we could chat in real time. Then he replied back and seemed to be all upset at me saying how he wasn't good with real time chat and when he heard I liked cats he thought it'd be fun pm'ing me and that since I had SA I'd be like him and be better at emails/pm's and that it was rather disappointing. Anyway I replied back and explained to him that I am better at im's because I overthink emails/pm's, IM's on the other hand don't give me as long to think and in my case the more I think the more I put off replying so I'm better with IMs. Since he didn't seem interested in pming me unless I replied quicker I told him to let me know if he changed his mind about IMing. He pm'd me back today saying "sorry to have disturbed you and caused you so much stress, take care." which kinda pissed me off because he didn't really cause me any stress he just annoyed me and from his previous replies I'd say he was the one stressed over it. Anyway the last time I was hoping someone awesome had pm'd me and wanted to chat was annoying for it just to be that...now that is disappointing. I just replied back "ditto" lol.
But anyway I don't mind pm'ing or email really it just takes me a few days to reply...but if people are gonna expect quicker replies and be upset when they don't get them they really need to swallow their fears and start using an instant messaging program. But besides that heres part of what I said in my post where I was looking for friends:
"I'd prefer someone good at 1-1 conversation...most of the time with people I feel I'm carrying the whole conversation. But I need someone that doesn't mind if I take a few minutes to reply at times, because I usually am playing wow while on IM lol. Anyway even if you aren't good at conversation its ok. I use msn messenger and don't have aim or yahoo"
So I sure don't know how this person came to the conclusion that I was looking more for email/pm friends then people to chat with. Of course maybe they contacted me because they knew I liked cats and they never saw that post...but then they said in their pm that they thought I was looking for people to talk to so I don't know.
Heh theres actually a topic on the forums about over analyzing things...thats so me. This really doesn't matter that much but I tend to over analyze everything I do that has some form of social action.
Anyway they have this thing on the forum now where you can just click a check box next to each PM and download them to a text file so I did that because I really hate throwing stuff away even online. I never delete emails or anything like that unless I have no choice but to. But I still don't have alot of my old emails and stuff because I used to have webtv and use their email and then when they terminated it for non payment I lost everything. Wish I'd forwarded them all to another account but I guess now it would've been a waste if I had as at the time all I'd had for second accounts was yahoo and hotmail and I stupidly went 6 months without signing into both years later and lost everything. I thought my mom would eventually be able to pay that webtv bill though and get it back, never happened though LOL.
Anyway I rarely go back and read stuff because it always depresses me, but its still nice to have the option to. It felt weird seeing stuff I'd written from as far back as 2003-2005, things were very different for me then. Felt kinda depressed when I read one where I said I'd met this great guy online (my last ex) and how I was so happy. And other one where I was apologizing to this one person for not being on IM when I said I would be because my friend came over. Its somewhat hard for me to believe that I once had somewhat of a life. And I can't believe I don't even remember the person I was sending those pm's too, they seemed like someone I'd been knowing online for a while.
Speaking of keeping stuff, I wanna delete my myspace but I don't wanna lose all the messages from my sister that I have saved on there (we communicated though myspace not email) Anyway I could just copy and paste them to word pad and save but meh seems too much trouble. I just wanna delete my myspace so that she can't ever contact me again.....well that and so no one I used to know can find me. I changed it so my real name shouldn't bring up my myspace but for some reason on social networking search sites my profile still comes up when I search my name. Ugh. And yes I search myself, I'm one of my favorite people to stalk LOL, well not really I just wanna make sure no ones saying bad stuff about me.
Anyway speaking of pm's whats with some people. This one person the other day got upset with me because I took long to reply back to a pm. Well long in his opinion. It had only been a day and he pm'd me again saying something about he didn't get why I seemed uninterested. I told him I'm not too good with pm's or email and gave him my msn so we could chat in real time. Then he replied back and seemed to be all upset at me saying how he wasn't good with real time chat and when he heard I liked cats he thought it'd be fun pm'ing me and that since I had SA I'd be like him and be better at emails/pm's and that it was rather disappointing. Anyway I replied back and explained to him that I am better at im's because I overthink emails/pm's, IM's on the other hand don't give me as long to think and in my case the more I think the more I put off replying so I'm better with IMs. Since he didn't seem interested in pming me unless I replied quicker I told him to let me know if he changed his mind about IMing. He pm'd me back today saying "sorry to have disturbed you and caused you so much stress, take care." which kinda pissed me off because he didn't really cause me any stress he just annoyed me and from his previous replies I'd say he was the one stressed over it. Anyway the last time I was hoping someone awesome had pm'd me and wanted to chat was annoying for it just to be that...now that is disappointing. I just replied back "ditto" lol.
But anyway I don't mind pm'ing or email really it just takes me a few days to reply...but if people are gonna expect quicker replies and be upset when they don't get them they really need to swallow their fears and start using an instant messaging program. But besides that heres part of what I said in my post where I was looking for friends:
"I'd prefer someone good at 1-1 conversation...most of the time with people I feel I'm carrying the whole conversation. But I need someone that doesn't mind if I take a few minutes to reply at times, because I usually am playing wow while on IM lol. Anyway even if you aren't good at conversation its ok. I use msn messenger and don't have aim or yahoo"
So I sure don't know how this person came to the conclusion that I was looking more for email/pm friends then people to chat with. Of course maybe they contacted me because they knew I liked cats and they never saw that post...but then they said in their pm that they thought I was looking for people to talk to so I don't know.
Heh theres actually a topic on the forums about over analyzing things...thats so me. This really doesn't matter that much but I tend to over analyze everything I do that has some form of social action.
Friday, July 17, 2009
I want everyone to be miserable hehe
So found out my last ex quit his guild of which he was the gm of and quit wow too. He also deleted his twitters, both his guilds and his own along with deleting his guilds website. His own website is still up though. He doesn't mention quitting his guild or why he quit but it shows his last few twitter updates on there and his last one said that he was helping his fiancee move in tomorrow and there was no longer anything about him playing wow on his site under where it said interests. Sigh bet that he quit because he was finally bored of wow and wanted to spend more time with her. Was hoping he quit because he had a falling out with his guildys. Well guess I'll never know what happened. Anyway I checked his realm forums and his guild is recruiting with a new guild website up now. I really really hope he had a falling out with them. Also hope his relationship with his fiancee crumbles before they get married. Would be so awesome if he ended up completely miserable. I found out through googling his sn name months ago that he was with a different girl before her and very shortly after him and I broke up. They had an online relationship for a while then he moved to be with her, he met her first online in wow. It was probably the girl I was soooo jealous of when him and I were together because he always chose to group with her over me in wow. She dumped him a few months after he moved to be with her, reading that made me soooo happy. Karma :D hehehe. And hopefully this relationship now won't last either. I want him to be alone and miserable and regret mistreating me because I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he'll never find anyone as awesome as me again. No I'd never take him back I just don't want him, or anybody who treated me badly before to be happy. Other peoples misery, especially that of people who hurt me before thrills me to no end, makes me giddy :D Was also happy when I found out before my best friend that I knew since childhood broke up with his bf and when I ruined one of his friendships years after I found out about all the lies (think I wrote about him in the beginning of my diary):D Anyway I was even happy when I found out someone online who had been rude to me before broke up with her bf, or rather he broke up with her and was rather mean to her. Even though I've talked to her bf before and know he's worse then her so I'm hoping he's miserable too. Anyway I love it when bad things happen to bad people lol...and since most people are bad that means I usually love when bad things happen to people.
Anyway speaking of people...one of my online friends told me last night that he cut off contact with a girl he met online and met in person a few times because he didn't see the point in being friends with someone he didn't see in person. So I was like am I next then and he said "Maybe but you have SA too so maybe not." So I was all quiet after that and now I'm not sure what to do, thinking maybe I should cut him off first. Not that it matters a ton to me cause its not someone I got really close to but still whenever something like that happens my feelings are always hurt a little.
Anyway speaking of people...one of my online friends told me last night that he cut off contact with a girl he met online and met in person a few times because he didn't see the point in being friends with someone he didn't see in person. So I was like am I next then and he said "Maybe but you have SA too so maybe not." So I was all quiet after that and now I'm not sure what to do, thinking maybe I should cut him off first. Not that it matters a ton to me cause its not someone I got really close to but still whenever something like that happens my feelings are always hurt a little.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Anxiety breakthrough :D
I talked on vent for the first time ever! I'm so proud of myself. I know it doesn't sound like much to most people, but for me who has really bad social anxiety its a major accomplishment. I'm quiet on it most of the time though, but I don't think thats necessarily a bad thing, better then people that talk over each other (and we get that some in this guild). I must sound young though because someone asked me how old I am(in whisper). I hate the way my voice sounds. The day after I first talked on it I actually spent all night worrying about how I sounded and if what I said was stupid or whatnot. But still I'm glad I did...I feel like its a huge accomplishment for me, and I know it will get easier to talk on it as time goes by. And last night I actually had a hour or so long conversation with some guildys even after the raid ended. Wow. I never thought I'd be able to do that.
In less happy news, my net was out for like 5 hours the other night. I called and they had a prerecording up saying it was scheduled maintenance. I was like wtf. I mean really...if the internet is gonna be out and they know it, why no damn warning in advance. I missed doing all my 25 dailys in wow that day because of that bullcrap.
The other night we came so close to getting the spore loser achievement on 10 man. But as always someone ruined it. This time it was the offtank (who is a great guy, but his player skills not so great). He used his army of the dead near the end! Ugh. What part of no aoe can't these people understand, the gm only said it about 10 times "no aoe don't kill the spores".
I know I complain alot about my guild, I guess I tend to focus more on the negative then the positive. But really its not so bad, actually I'd say this is the best guild I've ever been in (not that thats saying much lol) but yea, its a pretty good guild. They're all pretty nice and fair to me, and thats whats really important. It shouldn't bug me so much that some people in it aren't very good at the game, but it does. Anyway I got like 4 new pieces of gear this week. So I needed some enchantments on them obviously...well my guild was awesome cause I didn't have to spend a cent on the enchants or mats...guild bank and guildys provided it all for me :) I'm really grateful for that...though I feel a little guilty now because I used up quite a good portion of the enchanting mats in bank. They're also the only guild I've ever felt comfortable enough to talk on vent with. Or only people rather. I never even felt comfortable enough to talk to Rich on vent, and I really really liked him.
Also I think we may just clear the rest of nax 25 tonight (keeping my fingers crossed!) we did better then ever last night and went further in 1 night then we ever had before. Good thing I suggested doing construct wing and the first boss of dk wing after spider wing that night, otherwise we would've done both easy wings that night instead and thats how we usually do it and then the next night we spend hours wiping on the last boss in construct and bosses in dk wing (especially the first boss in dk). So now tonight we got 1 easy wing left and the bosses in the dk wing (cept for the first 1). Our dps was also better then ever tonight and for the first time ever I wasn't num 1 on the meter at the end of the night. They think we can get to KT tonight for the first time ever on 25 man as a guild and I hope they're right. Can't wait to see. Gonna go eat my yummy dinner of meatloaf and baked potatos then it should be just about time for the raid. Hope we get KT tonight!
In less happy news, my net was out for like 5 hours the other night. I called and they had a prerecording up saying it was scheduled maintenance. I was like wtf. I mean really...if the internet is gonna be out and they know it, why no damn warning in advance. I missed doing all my 25 dailys in wow that day because of that bullcrap.
The other night we came so close to getting the spore loser achievement on 10 man. But as always someone ruined it. This time it was the offtank (who is a great guy, but his player skills not so great). He used his army of the dead near the end! Ugh. What part of no aoe can't these people understand, the gm only said it about 10 times "no aoe don't kill the spores".
I know I complain alot about my guild, I guess I tend to focus more on the negative then the positive. But really its not so bad, actually I'd say this is the best guild I've ever been in (not that thats saying much lol) but yea, its a pretty good guild. They're all pretty nice and fair to me, and thats whats really important. It shouldn't bug me so much that some people in it aren't very good at the game, but it does. Anyway I got like 4 new pieces of gear this week. So I needed some enchantments on them obviously...well my guild was awesome cause I didn't have to spend a cent on the enchants or mats...guild bank and guildys provided it all for me :) I'm really grateful for that...though I feel a little guilty now because I used up quite a good portion of the enchanting mats in bank. They're also the only guild I've ever felt comfortable enough to talk on vent with. Or only people rather. I never even felt comfortable enough to talk to Rich on vent, and I really really liked him.
Also I think we may just clear the rest of nax 25 tonight (keeping my fingers crossed!) we did better then ever last night and went further in 1 night then we ever had before. Good thing I suggested doing construct wing and the first boss of dk wing after spider wing that night, otherwise we would've done both easy wings that night instead and thats how we usually do it and then the next night we spend hours wiping on the last boss in construct and bosses in dk wing (especially the first boss in dk). So now tonight we got 1 easy wing left and the bosses in the dk wing (cept for the first 1). Our dps was also better then ever tonight and for the first time ever I wasn't num 1 on the meter at the end of the night. They think we can get to KT tonight for the first time ever on 25 man as a guild and I hope they're right. Can't wait to see. Gonna go eat my yummy dinner of meatloaf and baked potatos then it should be just about time for the raid. Hope we get KT tonight!
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