I'm still alive lol

Wow I haven't updated in ages. Guess I sorta lost interest in this blog. Well bored now so here I am more then a year later finally updating again. My life is pretty much the same now as it was then. Will and I are still together. Visits have been less though due to money situations and weather. We've had 2 since my last entry. It would've been 3 and 3rd one would've been me visiting him with my mom but she backed out saying there was no way to get there. I found ways but she just deemed them all too expensive or long to travel :( Feel was shitty of her to get mine and his hopes up for nothing. Guess only way I'll ever get to see his area is if he takes me there (I have no car and am terrified of riding a bus or train 500+ miles alone.) Wish we lived closer :( I wanna see him every day, not just online or over the phone but face to face. I love my William! K now onto other stuff before I give people cavities.

Last visit was all the way back in late October and wasn't that great because I was sick :( William was super sweet about it though and took care of me good, going to the store to get my tissues, etc. He's a great guy and I'm so lucky to have him. :) We basically stayed at my house and the hotel the whole time because I was so sick. I feel kinda bad about it now, like I should've forced myself to do stuff because we get so little real life time together.

One before that was one of my fav visits though, somewhat for reasons I won't say here :P We went to golden hills state park very nice place. Walked around a ton there (well a ton to me anyway, maybe not to William whos far more used to walking then me :P) and took lots of pics there, maybe I'll upload some later. We also went to the aquarium here in niagara falls. Which I would not recommend. Charge was 10 dollars per person and it was rather small and unimpressive. They didn't even have dolphins, however they had sea lions and we watched them do a show, which was good but still not worth it imo. Also got a mood ring there and some pennys flattened as souvenirs and Will got his mom a thimble cause she collects those.

I'm still playing wow and so is Will. We both got the xpac and have 2 85s each. Him his lock, and now a death knight. Me my druid and lock. I've also got a priest at 83 and a rogue at 84, which I'm just leveling for professions. I don't like this expansion that much though. The raids seem less pug (pick up group) friendly and more guild oriented. I haven't pugged a single raid, expect for baradin hold which is a super easy 1 with 1 boss that drops limited gear and everyone does him, even then I still have alot of wipes whenever I do it. I haven't had much luck with guilds, so this really sucks for me. I've pretty much given up on them and am staying in my own which was and is a bank guild I made for myself and Will. The xpac also introduced guild leveling so I'm hoping in time I can at least get some of the perks from that by being in a bank guild, if I was in someone elses I'd worry about losing them when I quit the guild. Mine and Will's guild is already level 3 and halfway to 4 :) Too bad theres 25 levels lol. But anyway really wish they'd make wow more solo and/or pug friendly, I and many others would enjoy it much more then I'm sure. A cross server raid interface would be a good start for one, I hope they implement it one day.

Well Valentines day was last month and Will got me a memory box, he carved and woodburned in it to add a personal touch and put some felt on the bottom :) He's really been getting into crafting and woodcarving lately, think he's pretty good at it too :) Love when he makes me things. :)

Going to doctors in a few weeks, been not feeling well for past few months, isn't a cold but stomach problems and such. Hope is nothing serious but worried. My mom is no help either, she knows I have SA about calling places, yet she says I should. Took me many weeks to get her to call to make 1 for me. Also isn't any help that she always says she's had a feeling I'd die young. Seriously what kind of mother says that. But she is nuts anyway and I won't get into why.

Speaking of family, found out months ago via facebook/myspace that my sister is married. Her profile pic is of her and her husband on their wedding day. I couldn't help but laugh cause he looked exactly like the pics I saw of our dad when he was younger. I obviously wasn't invited to the wedding but thats fine with me. I don't get along with her or like her, and we haven't seen each other in 5+ years and last time we talked was like 2 years ago. It would've been nice to have a sister I could've been close to but I got to know her, and she's like our dad not a good person. Anyway I give their marriage 2 or 3 years, 5 tops lol.

Had some weird dreams past few nights about kittens. Came to conclusion that they meant if I found a litter of kittens I should pick the one that looks different then the others. Sucks I live upstairs in an apartment, makes it hard for any kittens to find me. And my mom is mean and won't go with me looking for one at the spca or newspaper and I'm too nervous to go by myself. I believe in reincarnation and even that pets can be reincarnated so am wondering if this is a sign and I should be looking for them? But I didn't feel they were sent from any of my previous cats like I did with the dreams I had years ago :( Was just now reading though those entries about dreams about Furby before in summer 2009 and feel bad and worried that maybe she was reincarnated and I never found her, so she found another family or gave up. :(

Hmm not sure what else to write about. I think this earthquake in Japan may be beginning of the end. 2012 and all. It sounds crazy, but theres alot of evidence if you research it, though I don't believe the world will end, I do believe it will be quiet different a year from now and mass population may die off. If not at least I can come back and read this and laugh at how silly I was a year ago.

Well guess thats all for now. Maybe I'll write again soon maybe not.

Deadbeat Parents And The Morons Who Think It's Ok.

Thread on SAS earlier made me possibly hate humanity even more then I already did. It sickens me that so many guys there think if a man doesn't want kids he shouldn't be forced to help support one should he get someone pregnant. I like how none of them could even give a good reason or reply with anything even halfway intelligent. Especially this one jerk who just chose to insult me and my intelligence because he obviously couldn't come up with a defense for his position.

So many men (and women too) need to learn to keep their damn pants on if they don't ever want a child. If you wanna have sex either get married or at least be in a long term relationship with the person. If you want to have casual sex you're more then likely a moron, because sex can never be casual, you always have some risk, be it stds, chance of pregnancy or even a lover of theirs finding out and taking revenge. Condoms are NOT 100% effective, nor is birth control, even using both is no guarantee.

Casual sex is alot less bad however if both partners 1. Aren't sleeping with anyone else at the time or if they are sleeping with others they are being upfront with all partners and all partners are ok with this slutting around and 2. They have discussed and agreed upon with their partner what would happen should an accidental pregnancy occur.

Also people can still change their mind and decide they do want the child, so you're still at risk, which is something you just should have to accept if you chose to have sex. If a man (or women) doesn't want to pay up to help support this child too freaking bad, they should've though of that before they had sex. No way in hell should some innocent child have to go without just because 2 people couldn't control their urges. The child will already be going without enough by having a biological parent who doesn't want to be an active part of their life they shouldn't have to suffer more by financially going without.

I mostly don't approve of abortion for similar reasons but that would be a different topic...BUT if one of the 2 parents decides they want that baby it should without a doubt be born. This means I also think if a guy gets a women pregnant and she doesn't want it tests should be done to determine paternity, then she should be forced to carry to term and pay child support when the baby comes. Unless its rape in which case the guy should obviously have zero say.