Furby

I had a dream again last night about Furby. Its like the 5th or 6th dream I've had of her this year. Like the other ones she was reborn as a kitten in it. In the first few she was a white kitten. In the last 2 she was a black and white kitten. In this last one last night she was a male kitten, black and white, and the smallest in her litter.

I can't help but wonder if theres something to these dreams, like shes trying to send me a message that shes been reborn or will be reborn and wants me to look for her. Shes always unhappy in the dreams at first but then happy when I find her. Its odd because she died 4 or 5 years ago and I've only just been recently (the past 6 months) been having these dreams. I'm worried if they are a message that she's mad or gonna get mad at me for not finding her :( I feel like I should be looking at least but with this damn SA and not having left the house in over 9 months well. I 1. wouldn't know where to look and 2. I have no transpo to go anywhere. 3. my mom is dead set against any cats now. /sigh and 4. Think I'm crazy for believing these dreams could be messages.

Maybe they're really just dreams and nothing to them. But its weird because it usually happens on nights when I haven't really been thinking of her and why now years after her death and why always about her returning as a kitten, why not about her living as she was a grey and white cat? Anyway if they are some kind of message I hope she is born to a litter as a stray very very near my apartment or near my moms work and my mom somehow has a change of heart and brings her home. I just hope I find her if she has been reincarnated already.

I wish I had a kitten

I had a dream last night about kittens. In it I found this litter of 4 cute little kittens and I kept one of them. The one I kept was the cutest of all, he was kinda a calico but also kinda a tabby stripped. His face was orange tabby stripped with some white and with black on the sides which looked so cool and his body had alot of white but also some orange and black. He was adorable...wish I really had a kitten like him.

I have no kittens or cats for that matter :( I still live at home with my mom and shes kinda a bitch about me getting 1. Last cat I had I had since I was 9 years old, she died 2 years ago. Her name was Tiger Lily and she didn't like to cuddle much or be petted much. Though she was kinda nicer towards the last year or 2 of her life(she died of cancer). I joked that she knew the end was coming soon since she was old, so she wanted to make peace with god. I also had gotten 2 after her that died in 2004. Whiskers, he was a black and white cat who was the sweetest cat that ever lived but also loved the outdoors (maybe even more then he loved being petted/cuddled). And the other one was Furby. I miss Furby most of all, she was like a child to me. Furby was grey and white and she looked and acted like a kitten even when she was full grown she still acted very kitten like. She loved to play and she liked to be petted but only by me...she wouldn't let anybody else near her ever. There was also something wrong with her (though she was perfect to me) where she couldn't jump right, her back legs didn't work the way they should've or something. She would fall down the stairs at times because of it. We never could find out what exactly was wrong with her or what caused her death, but she was very sick towards the end, she was barely eating, the vet was no help at all, just said she was anemic and that more tests would cost us, well I forgot the amount they said but it was more then a few hundred and we didn't have it :( I feel guilty to this day over it and angry at my mom too for not having the money...I think what if...maybe she could've been saved. Theres a part of me that thinks she died of a broken heart, because her and Whiskers were very close and he died a few months before her. From what we don't know, he just came home 1 day very sick and he died that night before we could even call the vet or anything :(

But anyway I love cats, they're the best animals ever, and way better then people. I really wish I could have 1 again.